Dec 17, 2003 19:26
i'm so extremely upset right now that i'm not even thinking straight. i did something dumb, but it was how i feel. now i'm apparently the biggest idiot on the face of the planet. i completely and utterly give up. i'm a mess. i can't do anything right and i care so much it makes me sick even if i want to say i don't.
this whole thing has turned me into such a mess. i'd love nothing more than to just physically beat the everloving shit out of inga. but then everyone would just dislike me more.
i feel so bad i feel physically sick, like i'm going to throw up. i haven't felt like this in an extremely long time.
whenever anything bad happens to me i feel terrible about. but when something good happens to me i don't feel it at all. and everything that's happened is my fault. inga did stupid things but i shouldn't have reacted how i did.