post Horizons...unhindered
Yeah, so I feel new era...the Fourth or Fifth Republic of my life coming into being.
"I'm finding my way back to sanity again. Though I don't really know what I am gonna do when I get there." Lifehouse...Breathing
That sums up my feeling. Model UN was great...was feeling down afterwords because I coped out and didn't talk to any girls that I liked there
Then Horizons...far better...met some very cool people...mostly sophomores...even better in that regard...
Then I was like so what if I see her again? I doubt I ever will...I wonder how I would feel. Well, I saw her today...and...my heart gave a little leap and then never spoke up again. She was as beautiful as ever...if not more than ever before but I feel that she is not to take part in this new era...I have little hope of that...and to try to fulfill that longshot of a hope would ruin all that the progress stands for. Thank being said...I still hold to what I have said in previous months...but I no longer base so much of my happiness on my success or not. I learned a lot and that is...I guess...the most important thing that came out of that. My love doesn't end here...just goes dormant for a while...I suppose...still there but under the surface
and to you...I will attempt nothing more than a hello here or there...nothing more than the conversation between aquaintences. That is all...if that
I guess more later...though I'm feeling kind of content...but not...for the first time in a while...I'm looking forward to seeing what crazy things life brings
Paul
"I'm finding my way back to sanity again. Though I don't really know what I am gonna do when I get there." Lifehouse...Breathing
That sums up my feeling. Model UN was great...was feeling down afterwords because I coped out and didn't talk to any girls that I liked there
Then Horizons...far better...met some very cool people...mostly sophomores...even better in that regard...
Then I was like so what if I see her again? I doubt I ever will...I wonder how I would feel. Well, I saw her today...and...my heart gave a little leap and then never spoke up again. She was as beautiful as ever...if not more than ever before but I feel that she is not to take part in this new era...I have little hope of that...and to try to fulfill that longshot of a hope would ruin all that the progress stands for. Thank being said...I still hold to what I have said in previous months...but I no longer base so much of my happiness on my success or not. I learned a lot and that is...I guess...the most important thing that came out of that. My love doesn't end here...just goes dormant for a while...I suppose...still there but under the surface
and to you...I will attempt nothing more than a hello here or there...nothing more than the conversation between aquaintences. That is all...if that
I guess more later...though I'm feeling kind of content...but not...for the first time in a while...I'm looking forward to seeing what crazy things life brings
Paul