if it was only a fairytale
I know i was given instructions to avoid blogging about my life in the military but for personal reasons, i decided to talk about it in a constructive and tactful way just so that I would remember this mismash of feelings im experiencing now. And please pardon my limited vocabulary because im expecting a really lousy post ahead since army did not only drained my sweat, it also drained all my creative juices.
The first few days in the army including this few days out for CNY celebrations made me realised how much my family matters to me. I used to take everything and everyone for granted but when you're out there in the jungle all alone hiding from your enemies and holding life threatening killer machines in your hands, it's hard not to think about these people that you have lived your life with when you know you're almost on the verge of getting yourself either killed, paralyzed or injured.
There have been many times in which I questioned whether it was really worth it to go all out just so i can protect the people I love, but GP in PJ and SOT has taught me that it would really be a great honor if i could die for the country. For that, Im thankful and I know that i will go all out to defend all these people and this place i call my home when the time comes.
The first few days in the army including this few days out for CNY celebrations made me realised how much my family matters to me. I used to take everything and everyone for granted but when you're out there in the jungle all alone hiding from your enemies and holding life threatening killer machines in your hands, it's hard not to think about these people that you have lived your life with when you know you're almost on the verge of getting yourself either killed, paralyzed or injured.
There have been many times in which I questioned whether it was really worth it to go all out just so i can protect the people I love, but GP in PJ and SOT has taught me that it would really be a great honor if i could die for the country. For that, Im thankful and I know that i will go all out to defend all these people and this place i call my home when the time comes.