and god said nonchalantly "...it's been a while"

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It's been raining alot, and this new acoustic cd of the Spill Canvas is stellar. And while I casually drink myself to oblivion, I guess we can only smile. And summer is coming, and it's gonna be fun. And friends are coming home, but will it be different. And Bradford's right, the lines have been drawn in the sand. And it will change from how we wanted to do things in groups of 12. And who will form these smaller groups? And will these groups interact? And is this what growing up really is, moving apart? And people need to stop asking me to get them a job at Ruth's Chris. And I'm never hiring again because I obviously make stupid decisions with that. And what is happiness? And my family is coming together as we all move on in different directions. And my brother mentions cocaine and my mom almost cried. And he was only making a joke. And my cousin Brad's girlfriend is finally becoming part of the family. And for the first time at family dinners I feel like an adult. And I drank a beer at dinner and my mom cried again, but because she said i was growing up. And i have no love interest at this point in my life. And for some reason that makes me happy, yet lonely. And my brother is right, women are just crazy these days. And if you question that, i ask you to stop and think about all the crazy girls you know. And I swear if ever see one more grain of pollen I will kill every fucking flower I see. And I just want to feel your lips, your eyelashes, your skin. And I don't even know who that is. And Im ready to immerse myself in the next stage of life. And are you as well??? And I just can't wait until I can see the sunset everyday from the beach. And I wan't to see you. And if your life ended today would you be happy? And I honestly think I'd be satisfied with what I've done if that happend. And Dani and I have started a drunken communicating relationship. And it's all kinds of beautiful

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