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Alright,this post is not gonna be all in depth into my latest and greatest emotions; so lets talk about my life and how I am doing at this point in time: First off, I am up extraordinarily early in terms of most people, as of right now its probably around 4:45AM, I set my alarm early this morning to study and that was about 1 1/2-2 hours ago now, so I've been up since probably 3AM this moring. It's who I am.I do better in the mornings. Anyways, this year has been quite hectic in relation to school, with all due respect, it's kicking my ass at the present moment. I cant say I'm dealing with it well cause my breakdowns are momentary now due to stress, but I am dealing with it thanks to people that help me through it. My weight and long time plague is not good. I realize others dont see it, nor do they believe me; but I am not happy with my body right now, but this will change, I am determined to transcend into a very confident person within the next year or so, so catch me in a good 11-12 months. But my life will get better throughout this post, I just need to finish this paragraph.(Ezra, Gideon) I am feeling very nervous lately but not anxious, and my mind they are two extremely different feelings, anxiety being the worse out of the two. My nerves are on end for different reasons, but they can be easily fixed. I have been sick for a few day, as well as tired, emotionally stressed,cynical and less than intelligent towards certain people because I dont feel like talking to them. All is not lost though, one of my greatest turing points for the year is in 2 weeks. I will get a car and be able to go up and visit my favorite people in LA.
Now its time for all of the goodness in my life to come shining through. Lately i've been confident, studying and thinking about the future. SAT's everything. I got a job, which is really good for me cause it gets me out of my head, because its not always the safest place for. I am now a smoothie employee, cause thats what I do, I clean and make smoothies; but its cool. I am also as of right now, on a diet and about to become very healthy due to my new diet plan. I made it up myself, while positive its been done before. I am not going to eat any kinds of chocolate or carbs. I know its not really original but I made it my idea as of this morning. I am looking towards the future and in it I see a few brand new art classes. All of which I am expecting to help me get into college, give new meaning to my art, as well as progress my skills and techniques. Hopefully my teacher will not be a bitch like my current one, cause she as of monday, may have single handedly put me back in therapy. Another great thing is my "A" in law and Society. I'm thinking about taking some similar classes classes of that subject at the local community college this fall. Alright, now i'm unusually awake so I'm gonna go try and get some sleep so I dont crash in about 4 hours. I'll go read "Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs", by Chuck Klosterman, courtesy of Ezra.
Now its time for all of the goodness in my life to come shining through. Lately i've been confident, studying and thinking about the future. SAT's everything. I got a job, which is really good for me cause it gets me out of my head, because its not always the safest place for. I am now a smoothie employee, cause thats what I do, I clean and make smoothies; but its cool. I am also as of right now, on a diet and about to become very healthy due to my new diet plan. I made it up myself, while positive its been done before. I am not going to eat any kinds of chocolate or carbs. I know its not really original but I made it my idea as of this morning. I am looking towards the future and in it I see a few brand new art classes. All of which I am expecting to help me get into college, give new meaning to my art, as well as progress my skills and techniques. Hopefully my teacher will not be a bitch like my current one, cause she as of monday, may have single handedly put me back in therapy. Another great thing is my "A" in law and Society. I'm thinking about taking some similar classes classes of that subject at the local community college this fall. Alright, now i'm unusually awake so I'm gonna go try and get some sleep so I dont crash in about 4 hours. I'll go read "Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs", by Chuck Klosterman, courtesy of Ezra.