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I feel ive lost touch with my [internet] self. It feels strange actually relaxing in front of the computer, Ive been on a rampage of being out after work for who knows how long, and I feel i just need a break. My head is overwhelmed with emotions that Im causing upon myself. Just the way he acted last night, made me sad. He barely hugged me and i didnt get my routine kiss...am i just something to keep him warm? cause thats what it really feels like. Im also angry at myself that I havent been taking pictures. The one thing in the world that makes me feel [[alive]] ive been neglecting.. Been pushing it away, and telling it "maybe tomarrow" But i already know tomarrow will never come. It was weird opening Photoshop tonight too, i havent done that in awhile..and it feels good to just be back in my HERMIT routine. Turn the phone off, plug the headfones in, DL beautiful music, and get lost in my own world..this world ive missed for way to long........