Get better, get stronger
I never liked math. Hated doing math and I still do. I can never comprehend how or why some formulas work and I get so afraid whenever I am faced with problem sums. I cannot imagine how my results for my next math test and exam would be. Help. School is taking a toll on me and I am so numb about everything that I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. First class honours seem impossible to me. Maybe I overestimated myself. Should have known better that my fish brain can only do this much. How am I going to survive during practicum? Sigh.
School aside, my face is finally getting better and I hope the condition gets better each day and maintains that way. The saying of "世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人" is very true. I was never a skin care person, slapping on makeup everyday as if my face is really made out of tough canvas that never age. And my hormones aren't helping with the situation either. I felt ugly and my self-esteem hit an all-time low and I feel depressed whenever I look at myself in the mirror. All I ever did was to use concealer and more concealer which only made matters worse. Thank god it's finally getting better now and I finally did something about it. Am slapping on layers of creams and moisturizers now religiously instead of makeup and I am secretly loving it! Because my face now is a lot smoother and healthier and I feel happy touching my face more. Well at least as compared to a month ago. And I feel less conscious now when talking to someone or when my boyfriend looks at me upclose.
Talking about my boyfriend... I can only say I am very lucky to have met someone like him. Who not only thinks about me but for me, who makes all the hard decisions for the good of both of us, who is firm when needed to be (although he always gives in to me hehe), who worries about my safety and makes sure I'm safe and happy and most importantly, who loves me. I am very thankful and eternally grateful to have such a love encounter of someone so amazing (although he always teases me but I secretly loves it) that I can call mine. Sorry for always being the wilful and overly sensitive girlfriend. I promise to be better!
And I cannot believe 2014 is ending! Time, slow down will you?
School aside, my face is finally getting better and I hope the condition gets better each day and maintains that way. The saying of "世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人" is very true. I was never a skin care person, slapping on makeup everyday as if my face is really made out of tough canvas that never age. And my hormones aren't helping with the situation either. I felt ugly and my self-esteem hit an all-time low and I feel depressed whenever I look at myself in the mirror. All I ever did was to use concealer and more concealer which only made matters worse. Thank god it's finally getting better now and I finally did something about it. Am slapping on layers of creams and moisturizers now religiously instead of makeup and I am secretly loving it! Because my face now is a lot smoother and healthier and I feel happy touching my face more. Well at least as compared to a month ago. And I feel less conscious now when talking to someone or when my boyfriend looks at me upclose.
Talking about my boyfriend... I can only say I am very lucky to have met someone like him. Who not only thinks about me but for me, who makes all the hard decisions for the good of both of us, who is firm when needed to be (although he always gives in to me hehe), who worries about my safety and makes sure I'm safe and happy and most importantly, who loves me. I am very thankful and eternally grateful to have such a love encounter of someone so amazing (although he always teases me but I secretly loves it) that I can call mine. Sorry for always being the wilful and overly sensitive girlfriend. I promise to be better!
And I cannot believe 2014 is ending! Time, slow down will you?