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I can eat normal amounts again. I'm restricted in what I can eat but at least I can eat something. I'm still getting pains but not as often and not as severe. I have a GI checkup nextweek to see how this is going. My weight is still dropping. I need to gain it back but that's nothing new.
I don't want to take my antidepressants anymore. They aren't keeping me from being depressed it makes it less severe. I feel like a freak being on them. Last night was horrible. If I flip out the way I did last night again I'm being hospitalized. I don't want that to happen. I have to control my emotions better. I just want to be like a normal person not a depressed psycho.
I don't want to go out today. I want to stay in my room and not be around anyone else. I wish people didn't care about me. It hurts them that I'm like this and I don't want other people to be hurt by me. I'm not worth it.
I don't want to take my antidepressants anymore. They aren't keeping me from being depressed it makes it less severe. I feel like a freak being on them. Last night was horrible. If I flip out the way I did last night again I'm being hospitalized. I don't want that to happen. I have to control my emotions better. I just want to be like a normal person not a depressed psycho.
I don't want to go out today. I want to stay in my room and not be around anyone else. I wish people didn't care about me. It hurts them that I'm like this and I don't want other people to be hurt by me. I'm not worth it.