Lonely
I'm feeling extremely lonely right now. (Thus the resurrection of the livejournal). I know I have friends again which is a nice feeling...and I just had an amazing weekend white water rafting. But George just knows how to destroy me. He says I'm negative but he doesn't know me anymore. He knows who I was when we were together but I'm not that person anymore. I'm glad I'm not. And I'm doing okay. But I can't interact properly with him because there's so much history. I hate the "grey" area he leaves me in -- it leads me on and just drives me insane. I hate that he hurt me 2night. He brought up my father and my past -- just as a means of HURTING me, on purpose. Its so ridiculous and despicable. Ugh! I just so wish that I had the old him back and I know I'll never have it but it just is so annoying. Sigh...I'm lonely and confused right now...Its a sucky place to be, especially since I was fine before i talked to him today. Bah.