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[cliche_you_say]

It's not time to reflect on the things I have done
the people I've hurt and the ones I love
It's time to start living in the now
without asking anyone why or how
It's time to start trusting in myself
instead of boxing my own feelings to their perverbial shelf
I have the best of everything
The two best boys, the best parents
except for the thing growing inside of me
its not emotion, but it's growing with intense motion
if it consumes my life - it can have it
but it will never get my soul
the one thing that truly ever belonged to me
the one thing that my two loved ones see
and to the girl that I treated so horribly
I dont think your a slut - a whore - or stupid
You were one of the best things that ever happended to me
I'm sorry now you live so far away
because the last time you were here
I saw it in your eyes
I could see past the lies...the fake..the show
you told me you wanted to kiss me
and I told myself no
But in that moment I realized that you
You were the one who never put up a front
we always worked through - whatever it was we had
you were right you were right. I see it clearly now
I dont want to fight, but I want to kiss you so badly now
If you look through my records written of fucked up chords
crash melodies and broken fantasies.
there is only one name that keeps repeating in the melody
I'll always love you.
and no matter what you tell anyone.
you tell me you'll always love me too.
and for you two who happen to be the two of whom I always knew
would always see me through. Who would always be true.
no I'm not saying you're my reason for being.
but you make life that much more worth it.