Re: New Beginning, pt 1twinsareinFebruary 14 2015, 02:30:19 UTC
Opening his mouth to apologize to Clark for not being there for him, Clark beat him to it, again. “It made me start to realize how much you’ve done for me since I met you, how much you’ve been there for me. And, I felt that compared to you, I hadn’t been a very good friend.”
“What are you talking about, Clark? The very first thing you ever did for me, was save my life.”
“Yeah, but...that was before we’d even really met, and...that’s not what I meant, anyway.” Clark made a cutting motion with his hand. Slashing downward, as though trying to wipe his words away. Lex could see the frustration in the gesture. “I’m not saying this right.”
Putting a hand on Clark’s shoulder, Lex squeezed gently. “Take your time, Clark. There’s no hurry.”
“See, this is what I mean. You’re willing to give me anything I need; be anything I need. That’s what I realized in Metropolis, and that...I didn’t have that anymore. I didn’t have you anymore.”
Practically holding his breath at the emotion in Clark’s voice, at what his tone is revealing, Lex made sure to release it slowly, so it wouldn’t break Clark’s concentration. He had the feeling he wanted to see where this was going.
He almost started in surprise when Clark’s hand brushed his, but he managed to suppress it. He hadn’t realized the distance between them had eroded to almost nothing.
For each step they took, their hands brushed together, and Lex’s hand twitched, wanting to slide his hand around Clark’s. He had to fight off the impulse, and the heat that flashed through him at the contact, so he could think straight. “I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you, Clark. It sounds as though you could have really used someone, this summer. I wasn’t there, then, but I’ll do my best to be here for you, now.”
Clark’s hand brushed against his again, but this time, the touch lingered, and Lex felt one of Clark’s fingers slide up and back down one of his own. Tingles traveled up and down his arm at the simple touch. Lex thought about all the men and women he’d been with over the years, the combinations of people he’d been with, the positions he’d tried, the kinks he’d explored.
Not one of them made him feel as good as the too-short touch he’d just gotten from Clark. Wanting to make sure he wasn’t making a mistake, and thus scaring Clark away, Lex copied Clark’s caress exactly.
When he felt Clark’s hand sliding against his and fingers wrapping around his palm, he felt a fierce joy, and not a small measure of fear. He didn’t want to mess this up, as he’d messed up all his other relationships in the past.
“I know you will, Lex. And...I want to try to be there for you, too. I want to get better at it; to be a better person...for you.”
Clark held on a little tighter, and Lex mirrored him. Together, the continued walking down the sand, holding hands the whole way. Lex’s heart felt as though it might burst from his body.
“What are you talking about, Clark? The very first thing you ever did for me, was save my life.”
“Yeah, but...that was before we’d even really met, and...that’s not what I meant, anyway.” Clark made a cutting motion with his hand. Slashing downward, as though trying to wipe his words away. Lex could see the frustration in the gesture. “I’m not saying this right.”
Putting a hand on Clark’s shoulder, Lex squeezed gently. “Take your time, Clark. There’s no hurry.”
“See, this is what I mean. You’re willing to give me anything I need; be anything I need. That’s what I realized in Metropolis, and that...I didn’t have that anymore. I didn’t have you anymore.”
Practically holding his breath at the emotion in Clark’s voice, at what his tone is revealing, Lex made sure to release it slowly, so it wouldn’t break Clark’s concentration. He had the feeling he wanted to see where this was going.
He almost started in surprise when Clark’s hand brushed his, but he managed to suppress it. He hadn’t realized the distance between them had eroded to almost nothing.
For each step they took, their hands brushed together, and Lex’s hand twitched, wanting to slide his hand around Clark’s. He had to fight off the impulse, and the heat that flashed through him at the contact, so he could think straight. “I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you, Clark. It sounds as though you could have really used someone, this summer. I wasn’t there, then, but I’ll do my best to be here for you, now.”
Clark’s hand brushed against his again, but this time, the touch lingered, and Lex felt one of Clark’s fingers slide up and back down one of his own. Tingles traveled up and down his arm at the simple touch. Lex thought about all the men and women he’d been with over the years, the combinations of people he’d been with, the positions he’d tried, the kinks he’d explored.
Not one of them made him feel as good as the too-short touch he’d just gotten from Clark. Wanting to make sure he wasn’t making a mistake, and thus scaring Clark away, Lex copied Clark’s caress exactly.
When he felt Clark’s hand sliding against his and fingers wrapping around his palm, he felt a fierce joy, and not a small measure of fear. He didn’t want to mess this up, as he’d messed up all his other relationships in the past.
“I know you will, Lex. And...I want to try to be there for you, too. I want to get better at it; to be a better person...for you.”
Clark held on a little tighter, and Lex mirrored him. Together, the continued walking down the sand, holding hands the whole way. Lex’s heart felt as though it might burst from his body.
This could change everything.
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Oh, yes, Lex! :)
Nice story. I like your description of the setting and how the boys remain quiet until Lex breaks the silence.
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