My appreciation
hey everyone i am here to express my appreciation for all that you all do. you all have let me overcome the biggest most horific mistake i have ever made in my life and i will never come close to making in my life again. you have let me back in and i just want to show my appreciation for that. that day will haunt me for the rest of my life and without all of you i would not know what i would do. i am glad that you all not just nicole have given me a second chance i appreciate it greatly. Nicole is the best thing in the whole world and i cannot describe to you in words the way i feel about her. there may never be a reason for what happend or anything and excuses get you nowhere so i am not going to make excuses up. but i want you all to know that i am a firm believer that things happen for a reason no matter what it is even sept 11th as sad as it may sound i think it was a wake up call to the U.S. however you may not a gree and that is fine its your own opinion and there is nothing wrong with that. with that said i believe that nicole and my relationship has matured greatly and i love her more each day each hour each minute ok you see where i am going. i also love her friends i think they are the greatest. as life has taught me i cannot take things for grated and i just want all of you to know that i do not take you for ganted and as it may not seem i appreciate it sometimes i appreciate all that you do. everything! i know what happend was wrong and i never once thought it was going to be good that that happend it ate me alive literally. i never thought that any of you would take me back in espically nicole. i owe you all one big time for everything however nothing could ever make up for what i caused i know that nothing like that will ever happen again. i love all of you and nicole. i love nicole more than anything else and i hope one day i can have all of you at our wedding i truly believ nicole is the one for me. yea i am young i know but when you know it kinda just slaps you in the face and says "hey dummy your about to lose the best thing in the world, what are you doing." do you get what i am saying. in the past year i have learned a lot i lost my grandpa and that was really the start of it all then as that happend i realized that i cannot take stuff for granted and more recently i lost a friend from high school and i realized how easy someone can be taken away from us. i always thought it was not to easy for someone to die but i realize that they can be there one minute and gone the next. so that is why i am here telling all of you this. claudia... You are one of the coolest most laid back people i know and it is amazing how responsible you are at only 21. jessica? you are one of the most caring people i have ever met. allison? i havnt really gotten to know you that well yet but you sure seem pretty cool! and for you nicole? oh my gosh i cant express my feelings for you i love you and i want to share the rest of my life with you. on that note i think i am going to have to end this letter because i am running out of things to say and its 2 in the morning. well thats all folks!