o_O long read, don't bother if you don't have time.
I am a person who hates racism, expensive things, the US flag, people who talk about things of which they're ignorant, when mechanical pencils run out of lead, when I hope or expect and it doesn't come to fruition, the (use of the) word "drama", people who belittle significant things, people who think they're special because of their religion or sexual preference, when I'm saying something and I can't think of the right word, when people are disappointed in me, when I have constant flashbacks, people who aren't superior and act like they are, people who say they hate hypocrites, when gum runs out of flavor, when my bag bruises me, when I fall out of love, when I cant meet my expectations, 2 letter words, having a poor short term memory.
I am a person who likes shiny things, odiferous substances, horror and comedy movies, making and eating muffins, chocolate covered cherries, being smart, the taste of sweat and blood, hurting peoples feelings when I don't like them, religion, hugs, men, lips, irises, mythology, tongues, dirty thoughts, dirtiness in general, gothicism, a life-is-good attitude, people i can respect, love, biting, sex, reading, algebra after it clicks in my head, red beards, altering my conciousness, taking pictures, having pictures taken of me, being able to say i'm the coolest chick ever without actually thinking it, having intelligent conversations, the library, the way a cigarette affects me after i haven't smoked in weeks, regaining my memory, looking at ugly things, not wearing makeup, taking a drink of something after i wake up at night incredibly dehydrated - preferably stale dr. pepper.
I dislike racism because it is unjust, expensive things because i can't affored them and they probably aren't worth it anyway, the flag because it isn't creative, ignorant people because when you talk you should be knowlegable, when mechanical pencils run out because its an inconvienance, when I'm disappointed because I put my emotions into something that was unrecquited, drama because its overused and overdone, belittlers because everything deserves its proper respect, people who think they're special because of their lifestyle...everyones special, which really means everyones normal, when I can't think of the right work because I'm normally very well spoken, when people are disappointed in me because I don't like letting them down, when I have flashbacks because it makes me want to kill myself, people who say they hate hypocrites because they probably are one, when gum runs out of flavor because then its just rubber, when my bag bruises me cause it hurts, when i fall out of love because its a part of me dying, when I can't meet my expectations because I just wasn't enough and thats no good, 2 letter words because they're too short, especially when they're put into a phrase together, such as, if it is to be it is up to me, and having a poor short term memory because it means i can't remember shit, also was the downfall of one of the greatest relationships I have ever had the pleasure to be in.
I like shiny things because I'm silly, odiferous substances because scent is the greatest thing in the world, horror and comedy movies because i like to see gore, and then laugh at it, muffins cause they're fluffy, chocolate covered cherries because they're sensual and exotic, being smart because it separates me from others, the taste of sweat and blood, not together, because its organic, hurting peoples feelings when i don't like them because im malicious, religion cause life isnt complete without it, hugs because they make me feel secure, men because they're so awesome, lips cause the good ones are soft and full, irises cause each one is unique, mythology because i expand my mind, tongues because they are versatile, they can be used for "good" things - speaking intelligently, and "bad" things- you can think of something, dirty thoughts because i can't be good all the time, dirtiness in general because sometimes im lazy and i don't want to shower everyday, and i like my living quarters to be disorganized, gothicism because it was a landmark point in my life, a life-is-good attitude because you need it to survive, people i can respect because otherwise they'd be shit, love because it's all you need, biting because i've always done it, sex because it brings to people closer together, and hey, lets not kid ourselves, orgasms rock, reading because it expands my mind, algebra after it clicks because it makes me feel smart, red beards because i like beards, and reds the best...followed by blond, altering my conciousness because the one i normally have sucks, taking pictures because theres only one chance for each moment that happens in life, and pictures are the only way to capture it forever, having pictures taken of me cause im narcissistic, being able to say im the coolest chick ever without it going to my head because i used to have poor self esteem, the worst even, and therein lies the humor, having intelligent conversations because its attractive, the library because there are books and people that are more likely to have intelligent conversations with you, the way a cigarette makes me feel after weeks of not smoking because then it actually does something, regaining my memory because its a useful thing to have, looking at ugly things because it puts everything in perspective, not wearing makeup because it saves me time, and im just as attractive without it, drinking stale dr. pepper when i wake up in the middle of the night dehydrated because its just so damn refreshing.
So, put that all together and what do you get?
Me.
But I'm still not sure what that means.
By the way, I'm reading a book called
How Real Is Real by Paul Watzlawick,
its "a very lively demonstration of the ways in which communication- spoken, written, sign, and body language- creates what we call reality".
Mind bender.
I am a person who likes shiny things, odiferous substances, horror and comedy movies, making and eating muffins, chocolate covered cherries, being smart, the taste of sweat and blood, hurting peoples feelings when I don't like them, religion, hugs, men, lips, irises, mythology, tongues, dirty thoughts, dirtiness in general, gothicism, a life-is-good attitude, people i can respect, love, biting, sex, reading, algebra after it clicks in my head, red beards, altering my conciousness, taking pictures, having pictures taken of me, being able to say i'm the coolest chick ever without actually thinking it, having intelligent conversations, the library, the way a cigarette affects me after i haven't smoked in weeks, regaining my memory, looking at ugly things, not wearing makeup, taking a drink of something after i wake up at night incredibly dehydrated - preferably stale dr. pepper.
I dislike racism because it is unjust, expensive things because i can't affored them and they probably aren't worth it anyway, the flag because it isn't creative, ignorant people because when you talk you should be knowlegable, when mechanical pencils run out because its an inconvienance, when I'm disappointed because I put my emotions into something that was unrecquited, drama because its overused and overdone, belittlers because everything deserves its proper respect, people who think they're special because of their lifestyle...everyones special, which really means everyones normal, when I can't think of the right work because I'm normally very well spoken, when people are disappointed in me because I don't like letting them down, when I have flashbacks because it makes me want to kill myself, people who say they hate hypocrites because they probably are one, when gum runs out of flavor because then its just rubber, when my bag bruises me cause it hurts, when i fall out of love because its a part of me dying, when I can't meet my expectations because I just wasn't enough and thats no good, 2 letter words because they're too short, especially when they're put into a phrase together, such as, if it is to be it is up to me, and having a poor short term memory because it means i can't remember shit, also was the downfall of one of the greatest relationships I have ever had the pleasure to be in.
I like shiny things because I'm silly, odiferous substances because scent is the greatest thing in the world, horror and comedy movies because i like to see gore, and then laugh at it, muffins cause they're fluffy, chocolate covered cherries because they're sensual and exotic, being smart because it separates me from others, the taste of sweat and blood, not together, because its organic, hurting peoples feelings when i don't like them because im malicious, religion cause life isnt complete without it, hugs because they make me feel secure, men because they're so awesome, lips cause the good ones are soft and full, irises cause each one is unique, mythology because i expand my mind, tongues because they are versatile, they can be used for "good" things - speaking intelligently, and "bad" things- you can think of something, dirty thoughts because i can't be good all the time, dirtiness in general because sometimes im lazy and i don't want to shower everyday, and i like my living quarters to be disorganized, gothicism because it was a landmark point in my life, a life-is-good attitude because you need it to survive, people i can respect because otherwise they'd be shit, love because it's all you need, biting because i've always done it, sex because it brings to people closer together, and hey, lets not kid ourselves, orgasms rock, reading because it expands my mind, algebra after it clicks because it makes me feel smart, red beards because i like beards, and reds the best...followed by blond, altering my conciousness because the one i normally have sucks, taking pictures because theres only one chance for each moment that happens in life, and pictures are the only way to capture it forever, having pictures taken of me cause im narcissistic, being able to say im the coolest chick ever without it going to my head because i used to have poor self esteem, the worst even, and therein lies the humor, having intelligent conversations because its attractive, the library because there are books and people that are more likely to have intelligent conversations with you, the way a cigarette makes me feel after weeks of not smoking because then it actually does something, regaining my memory because its a useful thing to have, looking at ugly things because it puts everything in perspective, not wearing makeup because it saves me time, and im just as attractive without it, drinking stale dr. pepper when i wake up in the middle of the night dehydrated because its just so damn refreshing.
So, put that all together and what do you get?
Me.
But I'm still not sure what that means.
By the way, I'm reading a book called
How Real Is Real by Paul Watzlawick,
its "a very lively demonstration of the ways in which communication- spoken, written, sign, and body language- creates what we call reality".
Mind bender.