quick update on my life
This past weekend was great. I spent it with my girlfriend and her family, and I had a blast. I don't know why but just thinking about it makes me smile. I've never known this kind of happiness before. This woman has completely flipped my world upside down and shaken it up. I went to church once again, and I'm truly surprised at how much I enjoy this, not due to ay religious ferver, but to the simple joy of being with her durring something she enjoys. And the fact that her parents love me cause of it helps out too. It's kinda weird to experience a family life like this. No other girl I've ever dated has had a family thats actually made me feel welcomed. It's both nice and kinda scary, I almost feel like I'm walking on eggshells on a tightrope. Like I could fall off at any moment, and yet something tells me that even if I were to fall, there would be a net two feet under me. Is this what it's like when theres actually a family bond? I dont know but I like this feeling. It's even funnier cause I find myself actually opening up and talking with her parents and not feeling that judgemental feedback I'm so used to. That alone makes me excited to continue opening up. Of course our very divided outlooks on life and its rules and regulations will probably make more heated subjects a bit awkward, but oh well, you can't have it all. All I know is that each moment I spend with Amber I feel myselffalling more and more in love with her. It's like life has finally begun for me. I see a broader avenue of options for my future spread before me. She has made me feel like I could fly, as cliche' as that sounds it's so damn true. I just can't wait for the next time I can hold her close and simply enjoy the feeling of her next to me. Thats the best thing ever, the sheer perfect simplicity of knowing that we don't need to go out and do anything to enjoy each others company. We often find ourselves just watching movies and simply sitting together. or even just having a good time taking her sister to castle park (a park built like a castle that is so freaking amazing, I wish I was 10 again!!!). I love this woman, with every fiber of my being I am so in love with her that I know shes the one. I look forward to that day I make her mine entirely. I am just so psyched by how much my life has improved because of her. Unlike others I've dated, she makes me happy, the self-conscious depressive down on myself felings I used to feel have faded away. I'm finally seeing that person others have seen. I just wish the whole world could feel as wonderful as I do when I'm with her. She's like my own perfect wonderful angel. I feel like walking on water and touching the sun. Omnia Vincit Amor