Depression: Can't tell if I would just feel bad no matter what--I think there was a legitimate, cyclical hormone dip late last week, which is partly why I felt so horrible--and (whichever topic) is the one I have chosen to gnaw on, or if (whichever topic) is making me feel bad, and if that's the case, if a strong attempt to redirect my thoughts would help. I mean, it probably couldn't hurt anyway, but I guess I'm curious as to whether redirecting my thoughts would make the situation better, or if I'd just settle into some new fixation. Because it's a hopeless topic. It's not something I can fix, it's not something I can do anything to improve, and it's doing a number on my self-esteem, which is leaking out all over everything else.
(Sometimes I think that it might be too late for so many of the things I wanted to accomplish, even though I'm only thirty. To late to catch a trend, too late to be a child prodigy, too late for young love. Well, if that's the case--fuck it, I might as well just have fun, right?)
So. If the sun comes out tomorrow, I'm going to go outside on that photo safari I meant to take a few weeks ago. Take some more pictures of flowers and foliage, basically--I can get some camera practice in, now that I've started thinking of photography as a minor hobby. I've just got to stop angsting and get on with living.
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Metallica’s Hetfield hospitalized in Sweden. Phish Returns to Feed Its Hungry Fans;
$1.2 million in illegal drugs seized at Phish reunion... by 200 cops... hired by Phish. OH BURN.
Jane's Addiction returns to Lollapalooza...and oh the (Siouxsie) memories from 1991. The Lede: Portrait of Shakespeare Unveiled, 399 Years Late. 3 Renaissance Rascals Exposed! ‘Swiss gigolo’ jailed for defrauding heiress. Man, I could so use a Swiss gigolo right now.
Salvador Dali's rotary dial cosmetics compact. Man beats up kangaroo home invader. Flight of the Conchords Experiment With Hair Product [If You're Into It]. 'Bones' star David Boreanaz brought in for PopWatch reader questioning! Nate Corddry and Molly Parker join Sarah Michelle Gellar's new HBO series. EXCLUSIVE: ‘Star Wars’ Live-Action TV Series Casting Underway. Exclusive: Lucy Lawless speaks about her role in 'Angel of Death.' Everyone's Favorite Firefly Companion Is Now An Evil Alien ['V']. 'Parker Lewis Can't Lose' is coming to DVD! But why stop with that long-lost show? Oscar Divas: Where Was Jack Nicholson, Javier Bardem, Etc ...? Images: 'Salt':
Angelina Jolie Has a Bloody Knee - Ouch!,
Angelina Jolie: Living On The Edge;
First Look at Milla Jovovich in 'Perfect Getaway.' Trailers and clips:
Exclusive 'Haunting in Connecticut' TV Spot;
Exclusive Clip from 'Bart Got A Room';
Sita Sings the Blues is finally free!;
Exclusive Red Band Clip: 'I Love You, Man';
Exclusive 'Role Models' DVD Blooper Reel;
Download Now: ‘Raiders of the Lost Ark’ 1978 Lucas and Spielberg Story Conference Transcript. How Sick of 'Watchmen' Are You?;
Before They Were ‘Watchmen’: The Characters That Inspired Nite Owl & Rorschach;
How Do You Ruin ‘Watchmen’? Photoshop Contest Offers A Good Place To Start;
The Funniest Watchmen-Related Photo of the Day (spoiler).
(Related:
Can We Blame Watchmen If ' The Sarah Connor Chronicles' Dies? [Terminator Deathwatch].)
Will Sam Worthington Steal Bale's Batman? Rumor: Marvel's Fantastic Four Being Rebooted, Too?! ‘X-Men Origins: Wolverine’ Website Spotlights New Mutants, Deadpool Image Hits The ‘Net. Akerman, Phillippe AND Taylor Kitsch set for 'Bang.' EXCLUSIVE: ‘Justice League’ Movie Still A Possibility, Says Director… Just Not Anytime Soon. The Kick-Ass Spock Scene You Won't Be Seeing In Star Trek [Morning Spoilers];
New Star Trek Movie 3 and 3/4 Inch Action Figure Images;
New Star Trek Movie 6 Inch Action Figure Images. Just How Trippy Does James Cameron's 'Avatar' Get?;
Cameron Nixes 'Avatar' Trailers? First Photo of Radcliffe on Deathly Hallows Set. New Moon production hits Vancouver:
"Why Don't You Kids Go Take a Stroll Around the Publicity. I Mean Neighborhood";
Twilight weekend in Vancouver ("Spotted: a twi-hard super loser being interrogated by police at a downtown hotel. She had a backpack full of Twilight merchandise, had been hanging out all day, weird and shifty, so much so that hotel staff called the cops on her ass believing her to be a security threat…");
Kristen out with Taylor and Nikki in downtown Vancouver;
Taylor Lautner is a Dirt Bike Devil;
Mr. Lutz Talks 'New Moon';
‘Twilight’ ladies talk Pattinson, Lautner;
Deleted Scene: Edward’s Bedroom Surprise (too... many... jokes... ack!);
Who's Directing The 'Twilight' Sequel This Week?;
Drew Barrymore Confirms 'Eclipse' Rumors (rumors that she's being considered to direct, that is).
You talkin' to me? Film quotes stir passion;
'Apocalypse' writer: Most scripts 'are garbage.' I like that these two headlines were together.
MTV News Chats With ‘Knowing’ Director Alex Proyas Live In NYC Tuesday Night;
We Hit The New York City Streets With Dwayne Johnson;
We Let Russell Brand Loose In The MTV Offices. Well, MTV's just up to all kinds of shenanigans today.
(
Russell Brand may join Depp as a ‘Pirate.’ Ah, that rumor again? At least it's more plausible than the Zac Efron one.)
‘Phillip Morris’ is MIA: Gay-themed Jim Carrey movie delayed by distribution snafu. ‘Scott Pilgrim’ Actor Mark Webber Gets Hairy To Play Stephen Stills. Cage Says 'The Sorcerer's Apprentice,' 'National Treasure 3' Likely;
EXCLUSIVE: Nicolas Cage Talks ‘Ghost Rider 2,’ Wants More Horror In Potential Sequel. ‘Zoolander’ Scribe Catwalks Toward Possible ‘Twolander’ Sequel. Puppetmaster Carves Out a Remake.