Because it's Labor Day, y'all

[cleolinda]

And on the fourth day God said, "Bitch, did you just compare yourself to Me?", she rested.

(I'm not quite as limp as I was after recapping Breaking Dawn, but then I somehow--seriously, in retrospect, I do not know how--did the whole 750-page book in a day, but spread 264 pages of Midnight Sun plus large chunks of Twilight over three. So basically

Comments

[tytaniaherself]

Thanks for this post. Frankly, you're one of the people that I look up to as successful. You're an excellent writer with a large audience whose work has been published in actual book form by an actual publisher.

In the arts, it seems like the better you do, the worse you have to feel about yourself. There are so many hopeful people in the field and success is so hard to come by, that it seems like even the nicest people have a hard time not taking the "You like compliments don't you?" attitude. At least, that's been my experience as a musician. Sometimes, I feel like I can barely move because I am so afraid of that chorus of outside voices saying "So you think you're successful and that you can feel good about yourself? Wrong! You're not successful enough, so get back to hating yourself!"

It's nice to know that someone who makes me think "Wow! look at what she's accomplished. That's awesome!" deals with some of the same negative feelings that I do. This past year, I've sung leading roles, done some higher profile work, made some great contacts and I sound fantastic... and I swear I've never felt crappier about myself. That needs to stop right now.

[cleolinda]

See, exactly. It's like you have to describe the best version of yourself that way and stick to that. Except that when I try to do that, the guilt kicks in all like, "See, now you're just getting arrogant, and people are going to hate you if you start to actually like yourself."

[insomniacafe547]

I hate that mentality where, if you start to believe in yourself and your abilities, people start going "SHOW-OFF!" and you must hate yourself to conform. It's like the movie The Incredibles (oh God, am I seriously making this connection?) - the superheroes have to cover up their powers and people are going "Everyone is perfect the way they are", which essentially means that NO ONE CAN STAND OUT. It's a very fine line.

(am i rambling? can i even be understood?)