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the past few days have been a combination of anger, anxiety, stress and concern. though i cannot disclose for whatever reason the specifics of the things that have been happening to my life. i thank all the people who comfort me. tell me that its okay.
the project for our damn poleco class has drained all my brains out..not because for the simple reason that its stressing but because at some point or another i've showed my anger and fury all at the wrong time. i've been a snot, a bitch, a pain in the ass. and for all that i apologize. though it would be wrong to justify it. i sincerely apologize for the stupidity and imprudence of realeasing such bad energy. i don't wanna be angry anymore...i don't wanna cry..and most especially i don't wanna hurt anyone for any invalid or stupid reason....honestly, i rather want to see myself hurt than inflict others. that has never been my thing. the realizations i've made these past few days has taught me to find a channel to release all my pain and anxiety. to say to myself to let LOOSE! don't be too hard on myself..thanks choochi for telling me this.
its not yet over. i've often times told myself theres more to come...things like this...my problems have a trend of coming in all at the same time and KABOOM! june is gonna be a pivotal month for me and my family. i hope we can surpass it without pain and prejudice. but rather learn from it and have acceptance in our hearts. i know GOD is around..
again, to all im sorry....very sorry for all my misdeeds and actions.
the project for our damn poleco class has drained all my brains out..not because for the simple reason that its stressing but because at some point or another i've showed my anger and fury all at the wrong time. i've been a snot, a bitch, a pain in the ass. and for all that i apologize. though it would be wrong to justify it. i sincerely apologize for the stupidity and imprudence of realeasing such bad energy. i don't wanna be angry anymore...i don't wanna cry..and most especially i don't wanna hurt anyone for any invalid or stupid reason....honestly, i rather want to see myself hurt than inflict others. that has never been my thing. the realizations i've made these past few days has taught me to find a channel to release all my pain and anxiety. to say to myself to let LOOSE! don't be too hard on myself..thanks choochi for telling me this.
its not yet over. i've often times told myself theres more to come...things like this...my problems have a trend of coming in all at the same time and KABOOM! june is gonna be a pivotal month for me and my family. i hope we can surpass it without pain and prejudice. but rather learn from it and have acceptance in our hearts. i know GOD is around..
again, to all im sorry....very sorry for all my misdeeds and actions.