Who am I??? Dreams or Memories???
Well I know I havent written anything in a long time butit has been pritty good. I have finally told my sisters boyfriend off. he is still pissed off at me even though it was about a month ago... I have been having a blast with my friends. I have gone to Ottawa again and it was great and this weekend I am going to Kingston to help paint a friends house and do a little clubing at night.. that is going to be interesting.. I have a new job which I started late may. it is environmental work, so everyone is calling me the environmentalist and asking me all these questions which I guess isnt that bad. I wish I was a little more out going though, I know people think I am boring at that was said right to my face when I was in Ottawa.. and it was said by a guy i dont even really know... I want to have a more interesting life...
I am still struggling with my beliefs. Brei and Jen are witches which I think is really cool but I cant seem to get into any orginized religion... it being pushed on me for so long has put me off on all orginized religions... I still love the moon and being outside when there is a full moon... I dont know but something about it just feels right to me .. maybe I am just weird.. full moons and wolves those are my things I love the most... connection????? I just wish I could be wild and free like them I feel so constrained here in this world... I feel as if I dont belong here but that there is a place that I am ment to be but got lost along the way... I also feel like I am finally figuring out who I am... but it is like I knew and then forgot and it is taking me a long time to remember. I think and dream of things that I shouldnt even know about and about people I have never met but feel as if I have known them along time ago... Most of the time the dreams are set in the same time and place but other times it is different like I have moved forward or backward in time to a different time and place and the people are different yet I know them as I knew the others. I wish I could talk to someone about this I am just afread that they would think I am nuts. Maybe it is just me imagination but it seems so real. I wish I can remember who I am or in the same matter who i was...
That is the one question that is still not answered which I wish I knew...
WHO AM I??????
I am still struggling with my beliefs. Brei and Jen are witches which I think is really cool but I cant seem to get into any orginized religion... it being pushed on me for so long has put me off on all orginized religions... I still love the moon and being outside when there is a full moon... I dont know but something about it just feels right to me .. maybe I am just weird.. full moons and wolves those are my things I love the most... connection????? I just wish I could be wild and free like them I feel so constrained here in this world... I feel as if I dont belong here but that there is a place that I am ment to be but got lost along the way... I also feel like I am finally figuring out who I am... but it is like I knew and then forgot and it is taking me a long time to remember. I think and dream of things that I shouldnt even know about and about people I have never met but feel as if I have known them along time ago... Most of the time the dreams are set in the same time and place but other times it is different like I have moved forward or backward in time to a different time and place and the people are different yet I know them as I knew the others. I wish I could talk to someone about this I am just afread that they would think I am nuts. Maybe it is just me imagination but it seems so real. I wish I can remember who I am or in the same matter who i was...
That is the one question that is still not answered which I wish I knew...
WHO AM I??????