Basically you have been telling yourself this for the last few months and un happy for that whole time. If you carry on thinking like this you are NEVER going to get over it... and honestly there is nothing to get over. Really. I spend 99% of my time with you and have never had anything remotly close to a bad time... you know why? Because you are fun, you are full of life and a joy to be around. You are just as much fun as you were 5 years ago/1 year ago/last week. You have not lost any of your spark you are just trying to put it out. It is not the life here that is was in america and basically it never can be. That is a different place with different people and it will never ever be the same anywhere. No matter which school you go to and which town you live it. You just have to stop thinking that we should be having some amazingly different life right now. We have what we have and honestly I think our lives are generally better than most. We can sit in everynight and have an amzing time. We do not need alcohol (albeit it is a nice treat) we do not watch TV and veg on the couch whilst we are here we are attempting new things daily... Who else can say that. Going out is over-rated and we do not want to be around those people anyway. Life isn't about the clubs and bars honestly you will not remember these events in 6 months. I hardly remember anyone I went to college with because they made no impact on me and that whole time period made no impact. Life is about the smaller things that make you sit back and smile. Our lives are rich with such things. I do not know what else to say except...
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens... these are a few of my favourite things.
i know the pettyness of it all and i no i am personally dragging my self down and forceing myself to be the person i so do not wnat to be
i am working in my head ways to just let go and just be
and yeah it is on nights like this where i voice it because i am feeling particuly low
and somedays i am fine
and we all know it is my fault and i will one day snap out of this but i have tried to make my self and all i can do is slump back into this black hole every so often
it is pathetic at the best of times
and i wrote on a piece of paper tonight all the good things in my life and all the bad and the good clearly out weighed the bad by a mile
but still sometimes everything is so grey and those bad things weigh down on you so much to make you question continuously who you are and what your doing and it was just one of those moments
and like any other moment it shall pass and good times will cloud this bad insignificant journal entry untill the next moment comes along
thanks for your words you say them so well
p.s do a dear a female dear ray a drop of golden sun ( i couldnt think of the lyrics t the other song so i just stuck with the whole sound of music theme)
Who else can say that. Going out is over-rated and we do not want to be around those people anyway. Life isn't about the clubs and bars honestly you will not remember these events in 6 months. I hardly remember anyone I went to college with because they made no impact on me and that whole time period made no impact. Life is about the smaller things that make you sit back and smile. Our lives are rich with such things. I do not know what else to say except...
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens... these are a few of my favourite things.
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i am working in my head ways to just let go and just be
and yeah it is on nights like this where i voice it because i am feeling particuly low
and somedays i am fine
and we all know it is my fault and i will one day snap out of this but i have tried to make my self and all i can do is slump back into this black hole every so often
it is pathetic at the best of times
and i wrote on a piece of paper tonight all the good things in my life and all the bad and the good clearly out weighed the bad by a mile
but still sometimes everything is so grey and those bad things weigh down on you so much to make you question continuously who you are and what your doing and it was just one of those moments
and like any other moment it shall pass and good times will cloud this bad insignificant journal entry untill the next moment comes along
thanks for your words you say them so well
p.s do a dear a female dear ray a drop of golden sun ( i couldnt think of the lyrics t the other song so i just stuck with the whole sound of music theme)
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