so i start to wonder
around 10:30 i got a distressed phone call from a friend -- i suppose we can call her that, to tell you the truth i am probably her only true friend i have known her for a long time and she sees me as the person to run to when there is trouble because she cant trust any of her real friends, silly huh? -- but whatever back to my origional sentence. she was upset because of a he said she said petty ridiculous argument but in her world it was going to ruin her life so i picked her up we went for a drive talked over the same point of he kissed her but told me he wanted to be with me and now she said i stole him but he was with me type conversation, and to be quite honest i felt sorry for the girl not because of the sittuation, or may so. but i felt bad for the fact that this was a controlling factor of her life and that she probably would have sat in her room for a week in tears (ok maybe not a week.)
but instead she calls me!! and i could and probably should let her cry in her room for however long because it is not my problem she conciders me as nothing, and i consider her as the same i would imagine.
But listening to her and helping her made me think as t usually does
even though the more people i "help" the more it worries me how much we worry.
i still think it better that she got in my car today, and maybe that will be all i am ever going to mean to anyone, a listener, an agony aunt, a means to an end.
but if that is my path so be it.
i think i prefer being on this sort of communication level with people because it means im not ever involved im just the resolver of issues and in a way i think that suits me better.
the more people i meet, the more i refuse to allow myself to be drawn in to everything that they involve them selves in.
now i sit here listening to bela fleck and asking questions about people mostly people i know
and probably will do so untill i am interupted or saved depending on how you look at it.
but i do wish that i could know why we skim over the important and significant moments in our lives concentrate on the unimportant and then regret that we did exactly what we just did only to re do it. and i know it is human nature to always wnat more and to get caught up in a world of meaningless nonsense.
but i see that as just a statement not an answer
there must be away around it because some people find it
i mean nobody ever 100% can avoid drama, issues, bad times and so on because it is life
but why concentrate on the above
and yes we can move away from that concentration but in all truth and if you think really hard about it you probably have skimmed over most C+ days and destroyed yourself in anger and negative emotion over C- days
now im sure im confusing you and im sure im confusing me so i must remove my self from livejournal immidiately to continue this.
love
but instead she calls me!! and i could and probably should let her cry in her room for however long because it is not my problem she conciders me as nothing, and i consider her as the same i would imagine.
But listening to her and helping her made me think as t usually does
even though the more people i "help" the more it worries me how much we worry.
i still think it better that she got in my car today, and maybe that will be all i am ever going to mean to anyone, a listener, an agony aunt, a means to an end.
but if that is my path so be it.
i think i prefer being on this sort of communication level with people because it means im not ever involved im just the resolver of issues and in a way i think that suits me better.
the more people i meet, the more i refuse to allow myself to be drawn in to everything that they involve them selves in.
now i sit here listening to bela fleck and asking questions about people mostly people i know
and probably will do so untill i am interupted or saved depending on how you look at it.
but i do wish that i could know why we skim over the important and significant moments in our lives concentrate on the unimportant and then regret that we did exactly what we just did only to re do it. and i know it is human nature to always wnat more and to get caught up in a world of meaningless nonsense.
but i see that as just a statement not an answer
there must be away around it because some people find it
i mean nobody ever 100% can avoid drama, issues, bad times and so on because it is life
but why concentrate on the above
and yes we can move away from that concentration but in all truth and if you think really hard about it you probably have skimmed over most C+ days and destroyed yourself in anger and negative emotion over C- days
now im sure im confusing you and im sure im confusing me so i must remove my self from livejournal immidiately to continue this.
love