placid
i went outside tonight with the intention of climbing my house to sit on the roof but it is all frozen with snow and ice so i couldn't. but i did take a walk and listened to the postal service and smoked a cigarette. I dont even really smoke anymore but i wanted to tonight while i walked and i enjoyed it alot. I have been really apathetic about my life lately, which i hate to blame on the cold weather, though i cannot really think of anything else that has changed that may be causing it. either way I have decided that i am going to start forcing myself to work out for at least 30 minutes a day because one thing that has changed alot with the cold weather was that i could no longer take 4 mile runs every night. so i am going to get up and get my blood moving and read more and write more. Since i really cant stand the whole victim style school of though when it comes to individual emotional status, since i am pretty sure that we play a very active role in how we feel if we accept that we do and take hold of our lives. This may also be the only way to achieve anything we want in any form imaginable.