Oh Fuck Oh Fuck Oh Fuck Oh Fuck Ohhhh Fuccccck!
OH MY FUCK. So if i'm not ALREADY stressed enough and trying to hold it all in (at random times i feel myself @ the point of tears nearly everyday). Little break down of the stressed ness that is krista: My brother was in jail and i saw him get taken away in handcuffs, he came home yesterday, that has been interesting. I have been working @ school every SINGLE day for at least 5 hours for the past 2 weeks at a time and i feel like i live @ that place. I have a semester 2 final tonight that i know i'm not going to pass. My apartment was broken into last week and just the other night my CAR got broken into as well so now i really dont feel like living here for the next 2 months and i get scared really easily. But here comes the big bang.
Andrew's back.
I thought he was gone forever. Shit, it felt like forever. (actually forever=about 2 months)
After he stopped calling, I admitted to myself that I had pretty much fallen in love with him without even realizing it.
I've had dreams about the night we met that were so vivid I woke up crying.
We haven't talked but i had emailed him like literally a month ago on our website and it says he read it yesterday. Is he going to contact me? Is he ever going to apologize for just disappearing out of thin air? I seriously thought the guy was dead or some shit like that. My email to him wasn't really the most pleasant and now i regret that and want to send him an I'm sorry one and that I miss him and all that other girly shit but i have nothing to be sorry for. he's the one that just stopped talking to me! he's the one that was too busy with school to even "deal" with me. God. I don't need this. I don't need to be reminded about how yet another really good guy slipped through my fingers because of circumstances that were absolutely not my fault but in a sick twisted way, seem to be my fault somehow.... seriously guys, you can tell me... what the HELL is wrong with me???
Andrew's back.
I thought he was gone forever. Shit, it felt like forever. (actually forever=about 2 months)
After he stopped calling, I admitted to myself that I had pretty much fallen in love with him without even realizing it.
I've had dreams about the night we met that were so vivid I woke up crying.
We haven't talked but i had emailed him like literally a month ago on our website and it says he read it yesterday. Is he going to contact me? Is he ever going to apologize for just disappearing out of thin air? I seriously thought the guy was dead or some shit like that. My email to him wasn't really the most pleasant and now i regret that and want to send him an I'm sorry one and that I miss him and all that other girly shit but i have nothing to be sorry for. he's the one that just stopped talking to me! he's the one that was too busy with school to even "deal" with me. God. I don't need this. I don't need to be reminded about how yet another really good guy slipped through my fingers because of circumstances that were absolutely not my fault but in a sick twisted way, seem to be my fault somehow.... seriously guys, you can tell me... what the HELL is wrong with me???