you've lost...that love and feeling...
So you know when you first meet a boy and you get that little smiley feeling inside, a little crush, you get the butterflies, you love learning new things and being around that person and its just... the good is amazing, the bad is hell... its a crush.
I've lost it... i've completely lost it. and i dont know what to do.
I've met...literally, LITERALLY...THE perfect guy for me. He's my type, my friends would love him, he's so adorably cute, the sex is literally mind-blowing, he compliments me all the time, loves pleasing only me, treats me like a queen, there's literally no negative to him....
And i honestly feel.... Nothing. every time i lie in bed with him and we cuddle and snuggle i smile but it just doesnt feel right.
Because it started out as sex... and its nothing more... i viewed it from the get-go as just... something we both had to do and i didn't even think of him in that way, i was using him for one part of his body and thats it because its what i'm used to, what i've been doing for awhile now and how the FUCK did i get to this place? this insessant coma i've been in lately... just going thru life like this and i think wow, i'm messed up...
worse part is...i can see it getting to the point where sex is just gonna be sex, not good not bad, not remembering what exactly happened... just guys. serving a purpose. and i suddenly realize i'm a fucking whore...i used to be the girl ALWAYS ALWAYS liking some guy or falling in love again... now i've gotten to the point where if a friend asks me about the guy i'm "seeing" (use that term REALLY loosely) i laugh and say none worth mentioning, none that are important.
and i want that feeling back so fucking bad, i wanna feel those butterflies, i wanna care again, remember how it feels to just care about someone and have them be there for u...
i've become one of them... somebody please help...
I've lost it... i've completely lost it. and i dont know what to do.
I've met...literally, LITERALLY...THE perfect guy for me. He's my type, my friends would love him, he's so adorably cute, the sex is literally mind-blowing, he compliments me all the time, loves pleasing only me, treats me like a queen, there's literally no negative to him....
And i honestly feel.... Nothing. every time i lie in bed with him and we cuddle and snuggle i smile but it just doesnt feel right.
Because it started out as sex... and its nothing more... i viewed it from the get-go as just... something we both had to do and i didn't even think of him in that way, i was using him for one part of his body and thats it because its what i'm used to, what i've been doing for awhile now and how the FUCK did i get to this place? this insessant coma i've been in lately... just going thru life like this and i think wow, i'm messed up...
worse part is...i can see it getting to the point where sex is just gonna be sex, not good not bad, not remembering what exactly happened... just guys. serving a purpose. and i suddenly realize i'm a fucking whore...i used to be the girl ALWAYS ALWAYS liking some guy or falling in love again... now i've gotten to the point where if a friend asks me about the guy i'm "seeing" (use that term REALLY loosely) i laugh and say none worth mentioning, none that are important.
and i want that feeling back so fucking bad, i wanna feel those butterflies, i wanna care again, remember how it feels to just care about someone and have them be there for u...
i've become one of them... somebody please help...