It is me.
I’ve finally let go of some of my old friends. I had been holding on though I’ve felt left out for a very long time and now I’ve stopped. They really haven’t tried to include me in the past two (fucking) years and my interests in going to bars in the city has been limited for the past three years. I didn’t think our friendship was so situational, we functioned only on a social going out level and not beyond.
Sometimes, I feel like a social retard. I’ve never been good at it. I have one two friends who I really connect with and then a few people who are more like acquaintances and that is it. I have my boyfriend, Rob and Meghan, Heather, Sue, and that seems like it anymore. I have music friends which are a situational thing. I always mean to have dinner or something outside of music, but I never initiate it and neither do they. Maybe, I should just do it. I wonder if I don’t put enough effort into friendships.
Is it me? You can only go through life for so long before realizing, it isn’t everyone else’s problem. It is yours... Meaning mine. I am the one factor in all of these relationships.
Sometimes, I feel like a social retard. I’ve never been good at it. I have one two friends who I really connect with and then a few people who are more like acquaintances and that is it. I have my boyfriend, Rob and Meghan, Heather, Sue, and that seems like it anymore. I have music friends which are a situational thing. I always mean to have dinner or something outside of music, but I never initiate it and neither do they. Maybe, I should just do it. I wonder if I don’t put enough effort into friendships.
Is it me? You can only go through life for so long before realizing, it isn’t everyone else’s problem. It is yours... Meaning mine. I am the one factor in all of these relationships.