i have a knot in my stomach
i've been writing a lot lately. too bad it's not in here. well, for those of you who care i've been pretty good. i guess. i've had my ups and downs lately-a lot. jamie and i have been doing pretty good but feelings have been blank. i don't know where i stand, and i'm not sure what the point really is. the fact that there is someone there for me at any point in time is wonderful, but that's exactly what i don't want. we've been spending so much time together lately and getting to know each other on different levels. no need for complaint of course, but i'm not sure if it's what i want in life. right now, yes, it's perfect. i say i'm in love, but if i were i don't think that i would be questioning like this. would i?
but, at the same time, i had a talk with a friend of mine that i pretty much turned down. if i didn't feel this way, i would have been jumping up and down saying yes a million times. i care so much about jamie. eh. there's too much crap on my mind.
i graduate in 28 days. wow. i can't believe this is almost over...thank god.
i hate being let down.........
but, at the same time, i had a talk with a friend of mine that i pretty much turned down. if i didn't feel this way, i would have been jumping up and down saying yes a million times. i care so much about jamie. eh. there's too much crap on my mind.
i graduate in 28 days. wow. i can't believe this is almost over...thank god.
i hate being let down.........