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Everything in my life seems wrong right now. Makes me wish I lost my ability to take anything seriously. Life would be so wonderful if my emotions could be turned off, and I relied only on memory, logic, and physical sensation to help me get by. I would be so happy, the happiest person on earth. So I wouldn’t feel that I was the happiest person on earth, but I would definitely know it. The first thing I would do would be to go find a few roof tops to stand on and yell out to people, “Ha ha! You fuckers! I don’t get sad anymore! I will never have to experience upset feelings again! Ner-nee-ner-nee-ner-nee!” And then I’d begin the first moment of the rest of my life doing only what was necessary to get on with my life, without stupid emotions holding me back.
I’m finally going to meet some friends for dancing tonight. Even though I keep giving them one reason or another for not being able to go, they keep including me. I really appreciate that they haven’t just dropped me yet. I think I may dive back into dancing again. It’s always embraced me and helped me temporarily forget my troubles when I found myself in a chapter of my life that sucked. I’m not happy, but I still know to be grateful.
I’m finally going to meet some friends for dancing tonight. Even though I keep giving them one reason or another for not being able to go, they keep including me. I really appreciate that they haven’t just dropped me yet. I think I may dive back into dancing again. It’s always embraced me and helped me temporarily forget my troubles when I found myself in a chapter of my life that sucked. I’m not happy, but I still know to be grateful.