[002] wear the new face of failure
At one point, some people would refer themselves as the victim of a certain situation. I do that. Not just from time to time. I do that a lot. And by the end of the day, I would ask myself: am I really at the disadvantage here, or is that just my ego kicking in?
Am I at the wrong here? Or is it their fault? Or is it everyone’s fault? Or no one is at fault at all? Who’s fault is this? Or do I take this matter too far?
Those cycle of questions are always left unanswered. They hit me hard on the heart like a brick heated under the desert sun.
Getting older hasn’t made me wiser yet. I’m at the phase where I would doubt myself and my choices more and more. From day to day, what I get is only confusion. There will always be ‘but’. There will always be ‘if’. There will always be ‘why not’.
There will always be denials.
I feel like entering the late teenage phase late that it’s not funny.
All I can do to defend myself for now is by choosing the choice with less regret. Silly that it sounds so much like the quote from a series I’m following, but that advice is the only thing I can hold on to to stop me from making a fool of myself most of the time.
(The next problem is I’m never good at making better decision).
Am I at the wrong here? Or is it their fault? Or is it everyone’s fault? Or no one is at fault at all? Who’s fault is this? Or do I take this matter too far?
Those cycle of questions are always left unanswered. They hit me hard on the heart like a brick heated under the desert sun.
Getting older hasn’t made me wiser yet. I’m at the phase where I would doubt myself and my choices more and more. From day to day, what I get is only confusion. There will always be ‘but’. There will always be ‘if’. There will always be ‘why not’.
There will always be denials.
I feel like entering the late teenage phase late that it’s not funny.
All I can do to defend myself for now is by choosing the choice with less regret. Silly that it sounds so much like the quote from a series I’m following, but that advice is the only thing I can hold on to to stop me from making a fool of myself most of the time.
(The next problem is I’m never good at making better decision).