Title: Forgive Me (For Giving A Damn)
Games: Final Fantasy VII (CC) & VIII
Pairings: Focus on Angeal/Zack & Seifer/Zell
Chapter: 2; Afraid To Start
Warning?: A little of everything. XD WIP, will be NC-17 latterrrr
Rating: ... VERY M. Almost everything I write is either M, or NC-17 or R so yeahhhh.
Still unbetaed. Yeah I fail. XD
Chapter Two:
"Afraid To Start, got your heart in a headlock, I don't believe any of it.
You say "too late to start, with your heart in a headlock",
you know you're better than this."
- Headlock/Imogen Heap -
"Which of you is the Sorcerer?" Squall asked as soon as the strange men entered the room.
The one who looked the most worried was tall, fit and dark haired. His blue eyes scanned the follow SeeDs, eying Squall with protective eyes.
Seifer leaned into Zell more than he meant too. The bitch wasn't acting up as much as she was but she wasn't silenced either.
Asleep my ass!, he thought unforgivably. "Obviously, that's the Knight." He whispered to the shorter blonde, who nodded in agreement.
The second male was seated on the bed, legs crossed and rubbing the worried man's arm. His eyes never drifted from Squall's corner, curiosity flicked in those blue orbs. He brushed red hair from his sight, sighing softly.
The Sorcerer..? Seifer took a moment to try and read the levels of the room between then two men. The blonde couldn't understand. They both were powerful. Very powerful but not Sorcerer powerful.
Either way, he knew not to mess with them. They, at his situation right now, very well could kick his sorry ass in one blow.
"Sephiroth." The redhead spoke, his voice drained but still so full of life. "Can...you explain? I think Angie's.." He trailed off looking at the blue eyed man beside him.
"No." He shook his head, turning towards the other man at the opposite side of room. "I can handle this, Sephiroth. He's my responsibility and I.." He lowered his head in shame. "I failed in protecting him once today."
The silver haired male nodded, his green eyes. They reminded Seifer of a cat. Sly and sharp. "Angeal, please. I trust you. However..." His eyes drifted to the SeeDs. "It is them I do not trust."
"Okay," Zell snapped, causing Seifer to wince. His ears hurt from the sudden outburst of the others' voice. "how are we suppose to trust you either, you know?"
"Now Raijin..." Seifer chuckled to himself, placing his hand on Zell's shoulder. "As much as I would love to make fun of you right now, you have a point. I mean that Goddess lady told us we could trust you but.."
The red head's eyes lit up. "The Goddess? She...spoke with you?"
"Genesis." Sephiroth spoke. "Now is not the time."
Genesis nodded. "You must tell me what she was like sometime. However," His eyes turned towards his friends. "if the Goddess talked with them that only must mean that they are worth of our trust, Seph. Angie."
Angeal sighed. "Fine. For now." He looked at Squall and sighed again. "Are you...the leader?"
Squall nodded. "Yes. I am the Commander Leonhart of theses SeeDs." His eyes glared at Seifer as he said SeeDs. Prick.
"Then please...Commander Leonhart. My student, Zack..." He looked behind him and towards the closed door. "Puppy...it's okay. Come here."
Puppy? What a nickname for kid huh?
Zack walked out from the shadows, timid and looking down as he made his way to Angeal's side. He took one look at the SeeDs and hid in the older's male chest.
"Angeal! I'm... scared."
Angeal's eyes seemed to connect when he smiled. It was soft and loving and made Seifer flume with anger. Was this Knight in love with his Sorcerer? His arms wrapped around the boy's frame and he whispered in his ear too low for Seifer to hear. Whatever he said, he turned keeping Angeal's arms around his shoulders, keeping his eyes lowered.
"This is Zack Fair, SOLIDER 2nd class. My student." Zack gave him a look. Though the boy was acting shy, he was nearly the man's height.
"Angeal..."
"...and my partner."
Zack smiled, feeling content with his victory.
Squall froze for a moment and Seifer almost laughed. Squall, himself, was in the closet. Not that he'd admit that. Especially not now that he was dating Rinoa.
Seifer didn't have a problem with it. He liked men himself. It was girls like Quistis and Selphie that made him come out. How could anyone date people like that?
Zell fidgeted beside him and leaned a little too close to the older blonde. What? Was Zell homophobic?
"How..." Squall managed to get over his feelings to speak. "When did you notice a change in Zack's behavior?...Zack is the Sorcerer I'm guessing."
Angeal blinked then nodded. "Yes. Zack is the... Sorcerer as you say. Well... Genesis and I started to notice Zack's Mako levels were higher than usual..."
"He was just getting use to the stuff," Genesis interrupted. "Or so we thought. After all, it took Angeal forever to maintain his when he was a second."
Angeal nodded and a small blush appeared upon hearing the embarrassing story. "Yes.."
"QUESTION!" Selphie even raised her hand. What a good girl.
"Um, yes?" Angeal was... put off by her sudden outburst much like Seifer during Zell bursts of energy.
"Uh, what's Mako?" She tilted her head to the side. "Is it like... some weird magic stuff?"
Genesis laughed and Sephiroth managed a smirk.
Seifer didn't see what was so funny. He was just as clueless as she was. What the fuck was Mako?
"Mako," Genesis giggled. "is a liquid form of Spirit Energy. It can be used as an energy source, and in some cases can be used as a weapon. It's like... an added kick to make SOLIDERs more... powerful. You can tell if you're looking at a SOLIDER by their eyes."
"Mark of SOLIDER." Sephiroth moved from the wall and took a seat next to Genesis. "It is similar to...radioactive materials in your world."
Selphie nodded and, was writing all this down in a little notepad. "Okay. Thanks. I was confused there for a moment."
"They're always confusing," Zack smiled lightly. "especially this guy." He tilted his head towards Angeal, who smiled back.
"Right." Squall spoke. Man, he just couldn't get over the whole "partner" thing could he?
"Well, after you found out about the... um, Mako levels..."
"Oh, yes." Angeal nodded in apology. "..we then went to Hojo," the group of SOLIDERs froze for a moment in disgust. "and when he didn't find anything wrong, we asked Hollander to look him over." Angeal sighed. "He couldn't find anything either, so we just let it go." The man shook his head and tighten his grip on the boy. "That... was foolish."
Zack offered him a small smile.
Rinoa noticed this and echoed the boy's smile. "Angeal," She stood beside her own Knight. "A Knight's duty to protect the Sorceress, or Sorcerer in your case. You did not fail him. He is still alive and well. If anything, you are doing your duty well for someone who just became one."
"Thank you...Miss?"
"Rinoa." She smiled. "Rinoa Heartilly."
"Thank you, Rinoa."
Seifer looked away. It wasn't fair. Rinoa and Squall (though he was hiding his sexuality) were in love and these two were in love... then why the hell did he get stuck with the bitch bent on destruction? Oh, right. His romantic dream. Talk about fools...
Squall started to look frustrated (even though he always did) and spoke in his commander voice; "SeeDs. We will now discuss our situation. If you'll excuse us..."
"Whatdid ya think?"
Seifer looked to the shorter blonde and shrugged. "About what?"
"The Sorcerer and his Knight, dumbass!" Zell grumbled, not listening to Quistis and Squall arguing. "Think they're a lost clause or what?"
Seifer thought for a moment and then shook his head. "To be honest, Chickie... I don't know."
Zell's frowned. "You don't think they can make it? I mean, they love each other and all but..."
"Zell, are you homophobic?"
The blonde was taken back with the question. "Uh, no?"
"Then why were you gettin' all close and personal with me in there? You know, I'm gay."
Zell's eyes widen as he threw his arms in a crazy fashion. "Seriously?"
"Duh." He sighed. "You really are stupid."
"AM NOT!"
"Are you?"
"Am I what?" he asked, suddenly forgetting he was supposed to be angry at the ex-Knight.
"Gay. You know?" Seifer smirked. He was so cute when he was playing stupid. Wait a minute, did I just think cute? "Do you like the cock fucking your man pussy?"
Zell blushed and turned his head away. "I-I...why would I tell you that? So you can," He turned back, his eyes angry red. "molest me or something?"
"Oh yeah. 'Cause I molest ALL my friends because I'm gay. No, you fucking moron."
"Now if you two are done arguing over...whatever it is," Quistis snapped. "can we please continue our discussion?"
"Yeah." Both replied, Seifer's in annoyance and Zell's apologetic. "Sorry."
"So," Selphie began. "do we... take them back to Garden and talk to Edea?"
"That would seem to be a great job but..." Squall trailed off.
Quistis sighed. "Are we just stuck here?"
"Didn't the Goddess lady say she'd contact us?" Irvine asked. "...does anybody know how to like, call her?"
"Like she has a cell phone, cowboy." Seifer scoffed, ignoring the angry eyes he was still getting from Zell. "So, basically... we're fucked."
"If you wanna put it that way," Squall sighed and shook his head. "then yes. We are indeed, fucked."
Seifer shook his head with an arrogant smile plastered on his face. Walking back into the room, the SOLIDERs looked at him, their eyes pleading.
Just like...
Seifer shook his head. The memories of faces, screaming and crying as he sliced through flesh.
"Is... something wrong?" Zack asked, his voice concerned.
Seifer gave him a good hard look. Finally, he was able to sense his aura. For a Sorcerer, he wasn't that weak but he was naive. Poor newbie.
"Just peachy." He humored the boy, unsure of what to do really. Plus, his Knight could probably beat the shit out of him if he was rude.
"What's our status?" Sephiroth asked suddenly, voice cold and bitter.
"We're going to take you back with us to Balamb."
"Balamb?" Genesis stuck his tongue out. "Yuck. Sounds nasty."
"Sure is." Seifer grinned the grin he used with Zell when taunting him. "It just reeks of fish."
"Sephy," Genesis turned to the other. "FISH!"
"You'll be fine, dearest."
Zack pointed and laughed at the red head. "He hates fish..!"
"Now, Zack..it's rude to point and laugh at people." Angeal scolded the boy in his arms.
"But not Gen?"
"But not Gen."
"WHAT?" Genesis stared horrified. "Angie! I thought we had something special!"
Seifer shook his head. This was all... far too silly for him. Hyne, it's like their all a bunch of Zells...
The room was dark. Seifer could feel eyes on him as he tossed and turned. It was becoming annoying.
"Go to sleep, chickie."
"I can't sleep, Seifer." Zell said again, for the fifth time now. "I'm freaked out."
Seifer sighed and turned to face the blonde. "What?"
Angeal had been kind enough to let them sleep at his place. He had only two guest rooms. So Rinoa and Squall took one while Quistis, Selphie and Irvine took the other.
At least they had beds.
Seifer and Zell had to sleep in the living room. Zell took the floor while Seifer took the couch. It was big couch and probably could fit more than three people judging how long it was.
"I'm freaked out. I don't know this place, and I..!"
"Chickie," Seifer interputted the babbling idiot. "Do you trust them? Angeal and Zack?"
"Well... yeah."
"Than shut up and go to sleep." He smiled. "I'll be here to protect you princess."
"Shuddup asshole!" Zell sat up glaring at Seifer in the darkness of the quiet room. "For a minute I thought you were actually nice!"
"That's where you're wrong." He chuckled. "I'm a bastard remember?"
"I know that." Zell groaned. "Hyne, my back hurts."
Seifer sighed. "Then you shouldn't of offered to sleep on the floor."
"I didn't know that it was going to hurt suddenly!"
Seifer sat up and kicked the fighter's leg. "Get up."
"Why?"
"Don't question me, Dincht. Just get up."
Zell got up confused. He was serious. He used his last name instead of the stupid nickname. "Why..?"
"On the couch."
"But Seif... what about you?" He asked laying on the couch.
"Oh I'm not letting you have the whole couch, dumbass. Move over." He didn't wait for Zell to scoot so he pushed him into the back of the black leather couch making it squeak. "Now, sleep."
"Seif..er!" He tried to push the bully over but he didn't budge. Zell was too tired to fight. Sighing, the blonde rested his head on the pillow feeling the warmth of Seifer's heat. "You know... you're really,"- yawn- "an asshole sometimes.."
"Welcome to the world, chickie." He turned to see the fighter start to drift in and out of sleep. "Really, it's fine. I won't molest you."
"No...not that." Zell yawned again and continued with dull volume. "I'm was just wondering what's it like.."
"What's like?"
"To have someone to love you. To care enough to risk all hell"-yawn- "for you..."
Seifer shook his head. "Didn't take you as a romantic, chickie."
"Usual I'm not...but seeing those two today got me thinking. Selphie's got Irvine, Squall's got Rinoa.."
"You could try Quistis." He chuckled, brushing stray haired from the younger's eyes.
"Nah, even she's got somebody." He groaned and yawned for the third time that hour.
"Sleep, Zell." Seifer rubbed the back of his neck and Zell smiled softly at the contact of callous hands on his skin. It felt... nice.
" 'Kay.." He mummbled and snuggled up next to the Gunblader. "Night Seif."
"Goodnight, chickie." Once he was sure Zell was asleep he drew his hand back and turned over to rest his eyes himself. It was strangly nice having Zell so very close to him. It was almost comforting to know that his hands could bring something other than destruction.
Zell...
The tattooed blonde grumbled and clenched his eyes shut. "Five more minutes, Ma.."
Zell,open your eyes, you are losing him.
"...who..?" The boy sat up looking around him to see he was still on the couch... with Seifer. "OHMYGODWHATDIDWEDO?"
With Zell going crazy, he ended up kicking said person off the couch. "What the fuck, Chickenwuss! I was trying to sleep!"
"WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME!"
"What are you talking about?" Seifer took a moment to process things through, before he started laughing. "Oh my God, we didn't..?"
"No." Seifer shook his head. "Sorry, chickie but I doubt you'd be a good lay." He stood up and started picking up the blanket and pillow.
Zell glared at him. "I am too!"
"Nu-uh. Wouldn't touch you with a 12 inch pole."
"Asshole!" Zell jumped up from the couch and stood in front of him, both hands on his hips. "I am too. I'm like... really great at it."
"Oh really? Did Squall tell you that?"
Zell blushed and shook his head. "Ew, Squall? He's my friend! Jerk, why would I sleep with him?"
Seifer smirked and leaned in close. "What am I then?"
"My bully."
"Besides that."
"...my friend."
Seifer blinked, confused. He expected an insult or something. He didn't think he'd say... that.
It was silence, the two so very close. Zell felt Seifer's breath hot against his skin. He started to wonder what it would taste like...
"Oh. Hi guys you're up!"
The two turned... and then away.
"OH FOR THE LOVE OF---!!" Zell screamed, covering his eyes. "Zack! For the all that's holy put some fucking pants on!"
"Sorry about that..." Angeal mumbled handing Seifer some coffee. "Zack walks around naked from time to time."
"I said I was sorry." Zack grumbled, pawing at his cereal and now wearing pants and a t-shirt. "And it's not my fault. They were about to get it on."
"Were. Fucking. Not." Zell snapped as Zack laughed and smiled.
"Then why were you all close to each other and stuff?"
"Staring contest."
"Liar."
"Whose a liar?" Selphie and Irvine came in just in time. Zell flashed a smile.
"You missed it Selfie. Zack was walking around naked either."
"SERIOUSLY?" She looked at the ravenatte. "Why didn't anyone tell me?"
Angeal chuckled. "Coffee?"
"Yes please." Irvine grinned taking a seat. He turned his grin to Zack then nodded. "Someone got laid last night."
Angeal froze for a moment and the blush meet the back of his neck.
"Rinoa and Squall were at it like rabbits."
Zack grinned and his partner sighed. "So was I and Angeal. My butt hurts."
"ZACK!"
Zell laughed so hard he fell out of his chair... and onto Seifer's lap.
Looking up at the scarred man, Zell poked his chin. "You need to shave."
"Thanks Captain Dumbass."
"No, just saying you look better without the tiny little hairs... it bugs the crap out of me."
Zack leaned over towards Selphie and whispered lowly. "How are they not fucking? They have the hots for each other."
"I don't know." She replied looking back at the scene. "Zell just isn't ready to admit he has feelings for him yet."
"What the fuck you two yakking about?" Seifer asked, his hand running though Zell's messy hair, pulling at to annoy the other.
"Nothin'." Zack smiled and looked to his silent lover. "I'm gonna go check on the others okay?"
The older male nodded and watched his lover walk off... and then come back with a blush on his face.
"My eyes... they took their INNOCENCE!"
The group at the table looked at each other before Seifer replied; "You saw Puberty Boy and Rinoa fucking didn't you?"
He nodded. "It was horrible..how...why..." He shook his head and took his seat in defeat. "I don't understand boobs."
Selphie and Irvine laughed loudly along Seifer. Zell and Angeal simply looked away and pretended to be talking about magic.
"Well," Irvine grinned. "to a straight man... they're like... gold."
"But they're all squishy and bouncy." Zack sat next to Irvine. "How is that gold?"
"Can we stop talking about this?" Zell shouted.
"I agree. I saw Rinoa's boobs once..." Seifer shook his head. "Too small."
"THEY COME IN SIZES?!"
Seifer looked over to a very horrified Angeal. "Don't you teach him anything?"
Once finally, Selphie made contact with the Goddess and told her about the situation. She accepted to bring them back only after asking Selphie to deliver a message to Zell.
"So...what did she say?"
"Hmm..." Selphie thought for a moment and than smiled. "Oh! I remember! She said to relax and let it happen. What did she mean?"
Oh but Zell knew what she meant. Fully. He sighed but shook it off.
"Something wrong?"
"Nope, Selfie. Let's get everybody ready. We are leaving tonight...right?"
"Yeah. AND YOU RHYMED JUST NOW!"
...horrible ending to the second chapter isn't it? I just wanted it to be funny. (it's totally an Selphie thing. XD) I'm a moron. ANYWAY, please do tell me if you like this little creation of mine...and maybe I'll write more. ^^