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An update of the oh-so exciting life of Hillary (which, oddly enough, comes exactly 1 month after the last update):
Still working at Target. Oh, the pains of working in retail during the holiday season! But I'm getting by just fine, and my paychecks are pretty nice. One of my ex-flings IMed me today and told me he sees me there when he goes in with his girlfriend (although he never comes to my line, go figure). So, yes. Work is okay.
School's moving along, as always. My AP English teacher finally popped (she was pregnant), so we have a substitute. However, this week we have a second string substitute, and tomorrow we're going to have a third string sub. What an organized class. AP Calc is definitely not my strongpoint, but I'm still getting through it, thank God. In Pop Music right now, we're making red hats like the ones Devo wore in the "Whip It!" video. We're doing new wave: Talking Heads, Blondie, Devo, B-52s. I love that class; it's such a break from the aforementioned APs. I haven't been to Government/Econ much lately, since I skip 4th block a lot. The teacher is also the football coach, and since I'm dating/skipping with Chris, it's pretty much okay with him. Plus I still have an A.
I'm the December Girl of the Month. Sounds special, but I just get to fill out survey type questions and get my picture in the paper and knit scarves with the Lioness Club or something. It's still kinda cool.
College stuff is....somewhat moving along. I was accepted into Elizabethtown, and right off the bat I get $13,500/year for 4 years paid, because of class rank. I can also get other financial aid, and scholarships. Yeah.
I'm not sure that I want to go there, though. I think Etown is my safety school. I'm applying to (drum roll, please): Tufts, Uni of Rochester, Uni of Vermont, Colgate, and Clark. I'm thinking that I can probably get into one of those.
Chris is going to Tufts. He's their top recruit for defensive line, so he's definitely in. I'm happy for him. He wanted me to do early decision there, also, but my parents wouldn't let me. I'm not worried, because I know everything will work out for the best.
Chris and I are okay, too. I feel somewhat guilty because just recently, I've felt almost devoid of real feelings for him, as if he's just a friend. I mean, we're very touchy and close in English, and when we're alone, but I don't feel the same anymore. I feel complacent, and I cried last night when I realized that I (most likely) won't be anywhere near him for college, and I'm okay if we break up. Usually I'm such the idealist, and finally reality sets in and I'm fine with it, and it scares me. Sort of. I can't explain it. We're perfectly fucking fine, but I'm hesitant to say that I love him.
Maybe I'm just in a funk. I really don't like this feeling. I feel myself growing up and it scares me. I sort of want to go to the flow, but I also want the old Hillary back.
Meh.
Still working at Target. Oh, the pains of working in retail during the holiday season! But I'm getting by just fine, and my paychecks are pretty nice. One of my ex-flings IMed me today and told me he sees me there when he goes in with his girlfriend (although he never comes to my line, go figure). So, yes. Work is okay.
School's moving along, as always. My AP English teacher finally popped (she was pregnant), so we have a substitute. However, this week we have a second string substitute, and tomorrow we're going to have a third string sub. What an organized class. AP Calc is definitely not my strongpoint, but I'm still getting through it, thank God. In Pop Music right now, we're making red hats like the ones Devo wore in the "Whip It!" video. We're doing new wave: Talking Heads, Blondie, Devo, B-52s. I love that class; it's such a break from the aforementioned APs. I haven't been to Government/Econ much lately, since I skip 4th block a lot. The teacher is also the football coach, and since I'm dating/skipping with Chris, it's pretty much okay with him. Plus I still have an A.
I'm the December Girl of the Month. Sounds special, but I just get to fill out survey type questions and get my picture in the paper and knit scarves with the Lioness Club or something. It's still kinda cool.
College stuff is....somewhat moving along. I was accepted into Elizabethtown, and right off the bat I get $13,500/year for 4 years paid, because of class rank. I can also get other financial aid, and scholarships. Yeah.
I'm not sure that I want to go there, though. I think Etown is my safety school. I'm applying to (drum roll, please): Tufts, Uni of Rochester, Uni of Vermont, Colgate, and Clark. I'm thinking that I can probably get into one of those.
Chris is going to Tufts. He's their top recruit for defensive line, so he's definitely in. I'm happy for him. He wanted me to do early decision there, also, but my parents wouldn't let me. I'm not worried, because I know everything will work out for the best.
Chris and I are okay, too. I feel somewhat guilty because just recently, I've felt almost devoid of real feelings for him, as if he's just a friend. I mean, we're very touchy and close in English, and when we're alone, but I don't feel the same anymore. I feel complacent, and I cried last night when I realized that I (most likely) won't be anywhere near him for college, and I'm okay if we break up. Usually I'm such the idealist, and finally reality sets in and I'm fine with it, and it scares me. Sort of. I can't explain it. We're perfectly fucking fine, but I'm hesitant to say that I love him.
Maybe I'm just in a funk. I really don't like this feeling. I feel myself growing up and it scares me. I sort of want to go to the flow, but I also want the old Hillary back.
Meh.