Doesn't Matter How Many Stars I Catch
-clears throat-
I got my AP Bio grade... I got a 3. I passed! Barely, but I passed. However, it doesn't seem to be enough for my mother. :| She gave the "you-are-more-than-what-you-do" lecture, basically saying "you have lots of potential; you're a smart girl, but you're not doing all that you could" and that she's not mad or disappointed (yeah, right) and that she's happy I passed, BUT (that "but" is so... arr) I could have done better. It would have been nicer if I had gotten a 4 instead of a 3. -_-'
At least my dad is a little more supportive. To explain said support, I will explain the situation (which is kinda sad). The majority, so far, of my fellow classmates whose grades I know, have not passed. So far, only 3 of us have passed, apparently. Apparently. There are still those who haven't gotten their scores, but, anyway, it is because that I am one of those 3 who passed (and all of us with a 3 XD) that my dad is now like, "good job!" and stuff. Yeah, that's sad. He has to compare me with others to congratulate me (bitterness talking here). Well, he wasn't like that on Saturday!
Both of them, not really understanding the system or the difficulty of the exam, were giving me a little bit of a hard time because the highest score is a 5 and I got a 3. Sheesh. Isn't it enough that I passed? Isn't it? NO. It's not. Why? Because I have more potential than that. :|
My dad's, like, happy now, I guess (oy). My mom is... neutral? Ish? I don't know. All I know is that it's hard to satisfy them sometimes, my mom more than my dad, but ah, maybe one day they'll see that I'm not slacking off as much as they think I am (even though I kinda am slacking off, but, hey, I'm tired and haven't had a break in a long time, which is not really an excuse, but...).
I'll be honest and say I definitely knew I wasn't going to get a 5. That's like... waaaay out of my league. I was very doubtful I would get a 4. But a small little light still lingered, hoping for that 4 so as not to disappoint the parents. I was even a bit doubtful I would get a 3 at one point! So when I opened that envelope, in front of my mom (not a smart move, I think), I felt my heart drop when I saw "3" because I knew, I just knew, my parents would have something to say and that there would be disappointment and all that other stuff. Honestly, I'm happy with my grade. I passed, and that's enough for me. Yes, it is a complacent attitude, but I usually try very hard for things I truly love or believe in or something along those lines. Biology is not one of them. Cheesy? Yes. Good Excuse? No. Do I care? Not really. It's just the way I am.
Well, anyway, with that lecture my mom gave me, like, twice (maybe thrice), I am left here, in my room, trying to console myself however I can (and not always the healthiest way) because I feel like a worthless, good-for-nothing whateverness who's probably never gonna make her parents, her mom, truly proud.
Good week to you all.
I got my AP Bio grade... I got a 3. I passed! Barely, but I passed. However, it doesn't seem to be enough for my mother. :| She gave the "you-are-more-than-what-you-do" lecture, basically saying "you have lots of potential; you're a smart girl, but you're not doing all that you could" and that she's not mad or disappointed (yeah, right) and that she's happy I passed, BUT (that "but" is so... arr) I could have done better. It would have been nicer if I had gotten a 4 instead of a 3. -_-'
At least my dad is a little more supportive. To explain said support, I will explain the situation (which is kinda sad). The majority, so far, of my fellow classmates whose grades I know, have not passed. So far, only 3 of us have passed, apparently. Apparently. There are still those who haven't gotten their scores, but, anyway, it is because that I am one of those 3 who passed (and all of us with a 3 XD) that my dad is now like, "good job!" and stuff. Yeah, that's sad. He has to compare me with others to congratulate me (bitterness talking here). Well, he wasn't like that on Saturday!
Both of them, not really understanding the system or the difficulty of the exam, were giving me a little bit of a hard time because the highest score is a 5 and I got a 3. Sheesh. Isn't it enough that I passed? Isn't it? NO. It's not. Why? Because I have more potential than that. :|
My dad's, like, happy now, I guess (oy). My mom is... neutral? Ish? I don't know. All I know is that it's hard to satisfy them sometimes, my mom more than my dad, but ah, maybe one day they'll see that I'm not slacking off as much as they think I am (even though I kinda am slacking off, but, hey, I'm tired and haven't had a break in a long time, which is not really an excuse, but...).
I'll be honest and say I definitely knew I wasn't going to get a 5. That's like... waaaay out of my league. I was very doubtful I would get a 4. But a small little light still lingered, hoping for that 4 so as not to disappoint the parents. I was even a bit doubtful I would get a 3 at one point! So when I opened that envelope, in front of my mom (not a smart move, I think), I felt my heart drop when I saw "3" because I knew, I just knew, my parents would have something to say and that there would be disappointment and all that other stuff. Honestly, I'm happy with my grade. I passed, and that's enough for me. Yes, it is a complacent attitude, but I usually try very hard for things I truly love or believe in or something along those lines. Biology is not one of them. Cheesy? Yes. Good Excuse? No. Do I care? Not really. It's just the way I am.
Well, anyway, with that lecture my mom gave me, like, twice (maybe thrice), I am left here, in my room, trying to console myself however I can (and not always the healthiest way) because I feel like a worthless, good-for-nothing whateverness who's probably never gonna make her parents, her mom, truly proud.
Good week to you all.