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i've been waking up around 7 these days. sometimes even i even go to bed 18 minutes before 8. i've toyed with the idea of giving up drinking, mostly whiskey, mostly anything stronger than a cheap tall boy. last night i baby sat a 7 year old. she had spunk, but i'm pretty sure i bored her. it's easy to want kids, it's much more tiring actually giving them the attention they deserve. the couple seemed so easy going, like they had it all figured out. i sat in that house & hoped i'd had the same thing in at least 3 years. maybe.
my entire house smells like the breakfast my girlfriend is cooking for me in the kitchen. kelly. she's kind of amazing. god knows i hardly know what to do with someone so sweet and patient. she's one of those people who is just never mean. even the slightest attempts of meanness are just so soft and gooey and just a bit of butt hurt, or a small wave of a temper tantrum that couldn't hold a feather to the rage inside of this body. she loves me. it's simple, she loves me & i think she could love me forever. we accept the love we think we deserve. she takes me on dates, reads in the park with me, holds my hand & loves me regardless. it's a funny thing.
my entire house smells like the breakfast my girlfriend is cooking for me in the kitchen. kelly. she's kind of amazing. god knows i hardly know what to do with someone so sweet and patient. she's one of those people who is just never mean. even the slightest attempts of meanness are just so soft and gooey and just a bit of butt hurt, or a small wave of a temper tantrum that couldn't hold a feather to the rage inside of this body. she loves me. it's simple, she loves me & i think she could love me forever. we accept the love we think we deserve. she takes me on dates, reads in the park with me, holds my hand & loves me regardless. it's a funny thing.