i sleep next to a body, but still i sleep alone

[cleancutfun]

it's easier to dream of fleeting moments
than to be honest, which i've noticed is not wanted
i've been catching myself crying alone a lot lately
it wouldn't be a lie to admit that i'm still unsure

i just know i'm alone, and it's been that way for awhile
actually it's been that way for a year
but i keep looking over my shoulder
expecting to find someone
but it's only my dog
go figure

i don't know if i'm going in the right direction
but i do know i can't take it much longer