My Life as a College Student
I haven't written one of these in a while... here goes....
Well, I started college. That was like a huge milestone.... sike. I love it here. I really do, but if you could hear the tone of my thoughts, you probably wouldn't believe that for one second.
Most of my friends and most of the people here at Columbia have childhood or high school friends at school who they can go to and relate to or whatever, but I don't. I came here not knowing a soul. I came here all alone and open-minded with the primary activity on my agenda being "MAKE FRIENDS." Well, this I am doing.
Columbia is some of what I expected and some of what I didn't. Yes, I have made friends and yes, I have gone out and had lots of fun. I love the people on my floor and I think those are the people to whom I am closest, at least Sadia is. Sadia has become like my best friend here, and I like that, but I don't want to just have one friend here, you know. I mean, I hang out with other people on the floor, its just that Sadia and I clicked very easily.
I have met many of the people I have corresponded with through the various websites: LiveJournal, Facebook, and MySpace. I think a lot of those people whom I've met are the ones I'd least like to be friends with. Not because of anything about them, just compatibility. They are people who say hi and bye, but not the types to hang out with a lot and just build lasting friendships with. That does not go to say that ALL the people I have met from these sites aren't friendly toward me. Not at all, I mean, I haven't even met most of the people from these websites. I actually love hanging out with Andrew, and I think that Jennifer is cool, and so is Mryam, and so is Tiffany, and a few more people. The point is that I miss my friends from back home. :(
The nicest people to hang out with are the queer folk... that could just be because ALL of us queerfolk are THE COOLEST PEOPLE ON EARTH. Lol. Like Peter, Hilary, Crystal, Christina, Kyle, Anthony, Audrey, and many more.
But, on the flip side... I am lonely in another way. My heart is taken, but the holder is miles and miles and hours and hours and hours away. The distance grows with each passing day and oh how my heart aches for intimacy and consoling and loving embrace. Its not even sex that I want right now... I just want romantic company. Someone to cuddle with and talk to face to face. The potential "hook-up" from here isn't gonna happen b/c she's like one of the aforementioned group of Columbia students.
Something that really infuriates me about here [Columbia] is that there is so much segregation that its almost unnerving. Granted there is much mingling between the races, creeds, and ethnicities, there is more segregation. The groups of black, hispanic, asian, white, jewish, etc students can't be missed on campus. Recently at a Carmen party that happened to be primarily black and hispanic, a small group consisting of an asian or two and a couple of white kids entered, so this hispanic guy turned on the light and told them the party was over. When they left he says that he has a facebook group for CU minorities, but "its filtered so people like that [asian, etc] don't join." That just ruined my night and my perspective of CU african americans and hispanics who reverse discriminate and self-segregate and perpetuate ignorance and segregation and discrimination just like the damn people back home. I wanted to see minorities in a different light from what I'm used to, but I guess all people are the same no matter where you go.
This shit is depressing... and the dining hall food sucks... I think I'm going home this weekend. Goodnight and much love to the nice and friendly CU people I have met... I'd love to hang out sometime.
Well, I started college. That was like a huge milestone.... sike. I love it here. I really do, but if you could hear the tone of my thoughts, you probably wouldn't believe that for one second.
Most of my friends and most of the people here at Columbia have childhood or high school friends at school who they can go to and relate to or whatever, but I don't. I came here not knowing a soul. I came here all alone and open-minded with the primary activity on my agenda being "MAKE FRIENDS." Well, this I am doing.
Columbia is some of what I expected and some of what I didn't. Yes, I have made friends and yes, I have gone out and had lots of fun. I love the people on my floor and I think those are the people to whom I am closest, at least Sadia is. Sadia has become like my best friend here, and I like that, but I don't want to just have one friend here, you know. I mean, I hang out with other people on the floor, its just that Sadia and I clicked very easily.
I have met many of the people I have corresponded with through the various websites: LiveJournal, Facebook, and MySpace. I think a lot of those people whom I've met are the ones I'd least like to be friends with. Not because of anything about them, just compatibility. They are people who say hi and bye, but not the types to hang out with a lot and just build lasting friendships with. That does not go to say that ALL the people I have met from these sites aren't friendly toward me. Not at all, I mean, I haven't even met most of the people from these websites. I actually love hanging out with Andrew, and I think that Jennifer is cool, and so is Mryam, and so is Tiffany, and a few more people. The point is that I miss my friends from back home. :(
The nicest people to hang out with are the queer folk... that could just be because ALL of us queerfolk are THE COOLEST PEOPLE ON EARTH. Lol. Like Peter, Hilary, Crystal, Christina, Kyle, Anthony, Audrey, and many more.
But, on the flip side... I am lonely in another way. My heart is taken, but the holder is miles and miles and hours and hours and hours away. The distance grows with each passing day and oh how my heart aches for intimacy and consoling and loving embrace. Its not even sex that I want right now... I just want romantic company. Someone to cuddle with and talk to face to face. The potential "hook-up" from here isn't gonna happen b/c she's like one of the aforementioned group of Columbia students.
Something that really infuriates me about here [Columbia] is that there is so much segregation that its almost unnerving. Granted there is much mingling between the races, creeds, and ethnicities, there is more segregation. The groups of black, hispanic, asian, white, jewish, etc students can't be missed on campus. Recently at a Carmen party that happened to be primarily black and hispanic, a small group consisting of an asian or two and a couple of white kids entered, so this hispanic guy turned on the light and told them the party was over. When they left he says that he has a facebook group for CU minorities, but "its filtered so people like that [asian, etc] don't join." That just ruined my night and my perspective of CU african americans and hispanics who reverse discriminate and self-segregate and perpetuate ignorance and segregation and discrimination just like the damn people back home. I wanted to see minorities in a different light from what I'm used to, but I guess all people are the same no matter where you go.
This shit is depressing... and the dining hall food sucks... I think I'm going home this weekend. Goodnight and much love to the nice and friendly CU people I have met... I'd love to hang out sometime.