coming out
You guys, I have decided to come out to my mother because this is killing me inside. Read this and tell me if u think it is effective. suggestions and comments would be nice.
My Secrets
Mommy, you’re the one who is always there for me
To love, cherish and always care for me
To worry when I’m away and even fear for me
And if I please you very much, you shed a proud tear for me
I know you’ll love me when no one else does
Hold and embrace me in your loving hugs
Through all the nightmares and disappointments
I could always rely on your shoulder to cry on
Through all the guys and the lies
The drama and even Mike’s alleged baby mama
You were there
You always cared
Always wiped away the tears
You’ve been like a sister and one of my closest friends
You promised me that no matter what I’m going through,
You’d be there in the end
Sometimes I fear that I haven’t turned out the daughter you want me to be
Mommy, I have a secret and not telling you is killing me
This is something you may not believe,
…so I want you to take a second to breathe
Telling you this is a reprieve from the pain I have inside
After much debating and contemplating, it was hard to decide
This is my greatest fear,
My greatest pain
My greatest secret
My greatest shame
Mommy, the last nine years of my life have been so hard.
I’ve been living my life behind invisible bars
I’ve been denying myself who I am
I’ve been trying to force myself to want and have a man
I can’t do it anymore
Of this I am sure
I have come to terms with just being
Me
Courtney
A lesbian
Its not disgusting - its natural
Its not a lie - its factual
Telling you this was so painful
I’m still the same Courtney
So love me for me
And I will be so thankful
I love you Mommy
My Secrets
Mommy, you’re the one who is always there for me
To love, cherish and always care for me
To worry when I’m away and even fear for me
And if I please you very much, you shed a proud tear for me
I know you’ll love me when no one else does
Hold and embrace me in your loving hugs
Through all the nightmares and disappointments
I could always rely on your shoulder to cry on
Through all the guys and the lies
The drama and even Mike’s alleged baby mama
You were there
You always cared
Always wiped away the tears
You’ve been like a sister and one of my closest friends
You promised me that no matter what I’m going through,
You’d be there in the end
Sometimes I fear that I haven’t turned out the daughter you want me to be
Mommy, I have a secret and not telling you is killing me
This is something you may not believe,
…so I want you to take a second to breathe
Telling you this is a reprieve from the pain I have inside
After much debating and contemplating, it was hard to decide
This is my greatest fear,
My greatest pain
My greatest secret
My greatest shame
Mommy, the last nine years of my life have been so hard.
I’ve been living my life behind invisible bars
I’ve been denying myself who I am
I’ve been trying to force myself to want and have a man
I can’t do it anymore
Of this I am sure
I have come to terms with just being
Me
Courtney
A lesbian
Its not disgusting - its natural
Its not a lie - its factual
Telling you this was so painful
I’m still the same Courtney
So love me for me
And I will be so thankful
I love you Mommy