RECAP/NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
new years eve was spent at a crowded outdoor gig being hugged by the boy and not being impressed by the twelve-million-dollar-fireworks, feeling fat and disgusting, but complete. 2005 was getting this demanding tutoring job which should've made me rich, but instead i'm so much poorer than i was the same time last year. money's gone to mom and bank and taxis and tickets. 2005 was also losing my virginity and giving/receiving heads, something i didn't expect to happen so soon but i'm not complaining. i honestly can't remember anything that happened before december, which i suppose is only natural considering i've done shit in the those mind-numbingly dull 11 months. i suppose i've grown more aware of the changes in my body, and how much i let my emotions control my actions, as opposed to the other way around. but being aware really means nothing if all you do is sit and wait for what's next. my passiveness has forced me into corners which i don't know how to get out of, but the good news is, at this time of writing, i'm not at all that home-sick anymore.
in 2006 i shall
-run the business of hand-written journal(s), so you wouldn't have to bear with my pms ranting
-shed at least 5 kilos, this has become a fucking routine
-go to class
finals coming up. stay tuned for how much i shall fuck them up.
in 2006 i shall
-run the business of hand-written journal(s), so you wouldn't have to bear with my pms ranting
-shed at least 5 kilos, this has become a fucking routine
-go to class
finals coming up. stay tuned for how much i shall fuck them up.