Just to let you know.......
I feel a lot better this morning. I talked to my mommy. She loves me! She will help me! Everything will be ok! I still feel numb inside, that will take months to go away..... I know this, and it's ok. Really, it is. I will not let him get to me like this again. If I do though, that's ok also, I am after all, only human! When I say I will not let him get to me like this again.... I am not refferring to us working things out. We have been split up for quite sometime already anyway. I mean that I will not believe him when he pretends to be a decent human being for a while. I will not allow myself to actually believe that he is wanting to help me, and count on him for soemthing. Shame me once and twice and all that crap.... this is shame me 7,028,238,474 times, that makes me a fucking moron, and I am done........