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[clayinyourhands]

i still can't believe i can't find my old notebooks.. what am i without my notebooks? if i don't have my notebooks, then i can't read what i wrote back then. and if i can't read it, i'll never remember what happened. and if i don't remember, then it basically didn't happen. so i basically don't have a past anymore.. i threw my past into the garbage can in the form of a stack of completely filled notebooks.. :( i still can't believe i did that..

hopefully they'll turn up somewhere. or i'll forget that i ever had them, and then it won't matter. but i doubt i'll forget........ eesh.. i'm gonna go keep looking, even though i've already looked everywhere..