getting old..
so i'm not actually getting old.. older, yes. i never realized that there was such a big difference between 18 and 19. you get done with high school and everything is the same, and then all of a sudden...... you wake up one morning and everything is different. you don't look at things the same.. and you definitely don't seem to fit into the same age class as everyone you used to. it's weird..
the way i think about things is even different.. it's like i'm testing myself to see what's ok for me.. all the things i never thought i'd try when i was in youth group.. well.. been there done that now. and some of these things don't seem like a big deal anymore. i can't honestly say that i'd never do some of this crap again.. i'm not saying it's going to become a regular thing by any means.. i just can't say it's as big of a deal as it once seemed to be.
we all have crap we deal with. even as Christians. especially as Christians, i think.. i don't know.. but like i already said, i'm not the same girl that i was a few days ago. but i've figured out what the difference is.. she was naive and decided to run away from all this. i'm what was left after that..
the way i think about things is even different.. it's like i'm testing myself to see what's ok for me.. all the things i never thought i'd try when i was in youth group.. well.. been there done that now. and some of these things don't seem like a big deal anymore. i can't honestly say that i'd never do some of this crap again.. i'm not saying it's going to become a regular thing by any means.. i just can't say it's as big of a deal as it once seemed to be.
we all have crap we deal with. even as Christians. especially as Christians, i think.. i don't know.. but like i already said, i'm not the same girl that i was a few days ago. but i've figured out what the difference is.. she was naive and decided to run away from all this. i'm what was left after that..