:: Bored as hell...::
This is the third day of this hands on crap at school, and it's fucking boring. There is nothing to do, and all we do is sit in lab all day and do nothing. I guess the doing nothing part is cool though. Since it gives me time to sleep and read these manga that I havnt had the chance to read since I've bought them. So yeah, now I'm sitting here being bored while all the popular students gather around and jerk off. It's nice to know that no one apparently cares for me very much. Every time I try and get in a conversation I'm just staired at like some freak and then blown off. Every one just walks to the other end of the room and I sit here alone. The only people that will talk to me are Stephany, Terah, Travis, and every once in a while Carmen will, but she is so far up Tylers ass all the time that I cant even start a conversation with her anymore unless he is totaly outof the room.
And even then she usualy just wonders off and starts talking to Philip or Jordan or whoever is part of Tylers little "click". It makes me glad that I'm leaving this school, because I relized that everything here works the same as it did at Newark Catholic. All then popular kids form their own intricate chain of groups, and then when someone wants to try and join in and have some fun, they just push them out like they were never there. I do have to ay though, this place is alot better than NC, but I still hate it just the same.
Thankfully though I'm going to transfer to Newak in a couple of weeks, and then from there I think things will go really well. I will be able to make all new friends and hang out with some of the ones that I have there now, but never get to be with. It kind of makes me sad though, thinking about how my group of friends seemed to just fall apart once we left NC, and now that I'm leaving here it is crumbling even more, soon I will be all alone like I had prediced. And while everyone goes out and goes to collage to become some hug success, I will be here all alone with nothing to look foward to. Beacue I'm not he same as everyone else and apparentl if I want any friends I have to act like they do.
~Loveless~
[god......]
"Circle of Fear"
Heartache’s knocking on the door
Shadows dance outside her window
Tears keep falling on the floor
As the world around her crumbles
If you wanna save her
Then first you’ll have to save yourself
If you wanna free her from the hurt
Then don’t do it with your pain
If you wanna see her smile again
Don’t show her you’re afraid
Cause your circle of fear is the same
Love can be as cold as grave
A one way ticket to endless summon
An empire of gentle hate
Today without tomorrow
If you wanna save her
Then first you’ll have to save yourself
If you wanna free her from the hurt
Then don’t do it with your pain
If you wanna see her smile again
Don’t show her you’re afraid
Cause your circle of fear is the same
It’s the circle of regret
The circle of hate
The circle of death
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
If you wanna save her
Then first you’ll have to save yourself
If you wanna free her from the hurt
Then don’t do it with your pain
If you wanna see her smile again
Don’t show her you’re afraid
Cause your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
And even then she usualy just wonders off and starts talking to Philip or Jordan or whoever is part of Tylers little "click". It makes me glad that I'm leaving this school, because I relized that everything here works the same as it did at Newark Catholic. All then popular kids form their own intricate chain of groups, and then when someone wants to try and join in and have some fun, they just push them out like they were never there. I do have to ay though, this place is alot better than NC, but I still hate it just the same.
Thankfully though I'm going to transfer to Newak in a couple of weeks, and then from there I think things will go really well. I will be able to make all new friends and hang out with some of the ones that I have there now, but never get to be with. It kind of makes me sad though, thinking about how my group of friends seemed to just fall apart once we left NC, and now that I'm leaving here it is crumbling even more, soon I will be all alone like I had prediced. And while everyone goes out and goes to collage to become some hug success, I will be here all alone with nothing to look foward to. Beacue I'm not he same as everyone else and apparentl if I want any friends I have to act like they do.
~Loveless~
[god......]
"Circle of Fear"
Heartache’s knocking on the door
Shadows dance outside her window
Tears keep falling on the floor
As the world around her crumbles
If you wanna save her
Then first you’ll have to save yourself
If you wanna free her from the hurt
Then don’t do it with your pain
If you wanna see her smile again
Don’t show her you’re afraid
Cause your circle of fear is the same
Love can be as cold as grave
A one way ticket to endless summon
An empire of gentle hate
Today without tomorrow
If you wanna save her
Then first you’ll have to save yourself
If you wanna free her from the hurt
Then don’t do it with your pain
If you wanna see her smile again
Don’t show her you’re afraid
Cause your circle of fear is the same
It’s the circle of regret
The circle of hate
The circle of death
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
If you wanna save her
Then first you’ll have to save yourself
If you wanna free her from the hurt
Then don’t do it with your pain
If you wanna see her smile again
Don’t show her you’re afraid
Cause your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same
Your circle of fear is the same