I can hate your girl. I can tell you that she's real pretty.
Wa-ooo.
At this moment, nothing seems possible. For a while there, all things were up. No things were down. Even though I wasn't getting a job, and there wasn't any money coming in, California still seemed a soon possibility.
I can tell you, literally, that everything changed last night while I was sleeping. When I woke up this morning I was back to the old thoughts.
I don't know if it's because I was ripped off of the medication because the doctor never called back Walgreens or me.
But today when I opened my eyes there was the anxiety again. The fear of the day. Then when I finally tore myself out of bed I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw.
I've gained half the weight I lost back because I can't stop eating either. My face looks puffy again, my tummy feels puffy again. Even my hair seems dryer and crinklier. Clothes just seem to fit awkwardly.
Uhhhhhhhh sigh.
At this moment, nothing seems possible. For a while there, all things were up. No things were down. Even though I wasn't getting a job, and there wasn't any money coming in, California still seemed a soon possibility.
I can tell you, literally, that everything changed last night while I was sleeping. When I woke up this morning I was back to the old thoughts.
I don't know if it's because I was ripped off of the medication because the doctor never called back Walgreens or me.
But today when I opened my eyes there was the anxiety again. The fear of the day. Then when I finally tore myself out of bed I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw.
I've gained half the weight I lost back because I can't stop eating either. My face looks puffy again, my tummy feels puffy again. Even my hair seems dryer and crinklier. Clothes just seem to fit awkwardly.
Uhhhhhhhh sigh.