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Damn. What a week.
None of this really seems real, still. I keep thinking its just a temporary thing. I wonder when it is finally going to sink in that no; this is permanent, and its not going to change.
Yikes.
The service was today. I almost lost it when my mentor, Kathy, came in. It isn't at all that she was doing something bad; entirely the opposite. It was just such a sweet, beautiful gesture for her to show up when I knew she should have been working. It was entirely unexpected when I thought I had covered all of the bases on what to expect. What a wonderful person.
I saw a lot of my family. I wish the circumstances had been better. It was still nice to see them. It really was. One of my uncles was just about ready to lose his shit almost constantly. I hadn't realized just how much my father's brothers loved him. They really do. A lot.
I don't think I'm ready to move on yet, though. I want to... but it isn't really about want. Soon-ish. Soon.
Over all, things are well. But yeah.
None of this really seems real, still. I keep thinking its just a temporary thing. I wonder when it is finally going to sink in that no; this is permanent, and its not going to change.
Yikes.
The service was today. I almost lost it when my mentor, Kathy, came in. It isn't at all that she was doing something bad; entirely the opposite. It was just such a sweet, beautiful gesture for her to show up when I knew she should have been working. It was entirely unexpected when I thought I had covered all of the bases on what to expect. What a wonderful person.
I saw a lot of my family. I wish the circumstances had been better. It was still nice to see them. It really was. One of my uncles was just about ready to lose his shit almost constantly. I hadn't realized just how much my father's brothers loved him. They really do. A lot.
I don't think I'm ready to move on yet, though. I want to... but it isn't really about want. Soon-ish. Soon.
Over all, things are well. But yeah.