Roller Coaster of Life

[claudialioncour]

So, albeit stressful, the tour was AMAZING! I quit smoking before going out on the second leg and didn't have any problems while on the road. It's really truly amazing to do a job you love and do it well, and get such good feedback knowing you're doing something you whole heartedly believe in. Well, that sets the bar alright. It was amazing. Then I come back, take a couple weeks off and realize when the time comes to go back over to the Rainforest and ask for my job back...well I really really really don't want to. I have zero desire to go back and be a server again. But I don't think i'd mind working some entry level receptionist/clerical job in an office. I'm good at the semi-mindless paper work kinda stuff. Or maybe I could even get a job related to my psych degree and work with people as some sort of behavioural tech job. yea, that'd be good. (and BTW, a theatre job is pretty much a no go 'cuz of where i live and the time of year) So, I will file for unemployment insurance and live on that until i can get a job i won't hate. Good idea right? Ya, until i file my claim and they tell me I'll get a whopping......$96 a week!!!! Are you fucking kidding me??!!!?!?!?!?!?! How the hell am i supposed to live on that...not even live well. I mean that's not even enough money to over my bills, let alone buy groceries. I can't believe it. Why?? Why does it have to be like this? WHy can't i just have a job I actually wouldn't mind. I'm not asking for much-$9.50/hour, reasonable hours, responsibility, paperwork....Why??
So now I'm sitting here thinking about do i wait for the unemployment money (which won't be for another week 'cuz there's apparently a one week waiting period), or maybe go see if starbucks is hiring?? How do you motivate yourself to go get a job you don't want??