long time no talk.. or um, write.
so it's been a reallllllllllly long time since i've written in here. That's because I have myspace and use that now. But, for those of you who do not have it, I figured i'd give u a short and sweet update of my life.
After the previous entry.. Sam and i got back together, had a great new years ever together... and broke up two weeks ago. We agreed to be friends... but it's really hard... we see eachother... and... there are pts where he looks at me and I just... feel the way I used to when he looks at me, and so many pts where we're standing close and I know he wants to kisss me, but it's better that he doesn't, adn we both know that. Kim's been hangin with him a lot too, I just hope he's careful with that, I don't want him to get hurt or get back into a relationship that isn't good for him. This is coming from a friendstandpt too, not a jealous ex standpt. I still realllllllllllllly care about him and want him to be happy, and according to him he's been having the shittiest two weeks and he really misses me but seeing me hurts.
I don't know, seriously, drama just FINDS Me! I have a stalker boy who calls me TWENTY times a day, no joke, TWENTY! I actually just got done tellin him i dont' see us going anywhere... soooo hopefully he'll back off! He did bring me a long stemed pink rose into work on vday though, that was sweet. And Cassidy gave me a vday present too... which was totaly unexpected.
I don't know, I just.. have offers but I really just... think I need to be by myself right now. I am amazed at how much I depended on Sam for, and now that I don't have him like that, I've become a lot more indept. And I have the most amazing friends... They've kept me busy and my mind off of everything and I can not thank God enough for them, truly. I am soooo thankful for them.
There is much more goin on. Goin to fayetteville this weekend, drivin down with Kat and Sam, and then pickin my sister up from the airport. We're stayin at his house,and he's stayin at niffs... should be interesting. I really miss him and his friendship, most of all his friendship. When I see him I'm happy and smiling and everthing is good. but i really miss talkin to him and seein him everyday, which i know is normal. and he says he misses me so much but that seeing me hurts. and i definitely get that.
i'm gettin a tattoo too btw. I'll post pics sometime, I was supposed to get it last night, but the placed closed 15 mins after i got there damnit!
call me guys! i miss u! 828 719 5739!
suzanna
After the previous entry.. Sam and i got back together, had a great new years ever together... and broke up two weeks ago. We agreed to be friends... but it's really hard... we see eachother... and... there are pts where he looks at me and I just... feel the way I used to when he looks at me, and so many pts where we're standing close and I know he wants to kisss me, but it's better that he doesn't, adn we both know that. Kim's been hangin with him a lot too, I just hope he's careful with that, I don't want him to get hurt or get back into a relationship that isn't good for him. This is coming from a friendstandpt too, not a jealous ex standpt. I still realllllllllllllly care about him and want him to be happy, and according to him he's been having the shittiest two weeks and he really misses me but seeing me hurts.
I don't know, seriously, drama just FINDS Me! I have a stalker boy who calls me TWENTY times a day, no joke, TWENTY! I actually just got done tellin him i dont' see us going anywhere... soooo hopefully he'll back off! He did bring me a long stemed pink rose into work on vday though, that was sweet. And Cassidy gave me a vday present too... which was totaly unexpected.
I don't know, I just.. have offers but I really just... think I need to be by myself right now. I am amazed at how much I depended on Sam for, and now that I don't have him like that, I've become a lot more indept. And I have the most amazing friends... They've kept me busy and my mind off of everything and I can not thank God enough for them, truly. I am soooo thankful for them.
There is much more goin on. Goin to fayetteville this weekend, drivin down with Kat and Sam, and then pickin my sister up from the airport. We're stayin at his house,and he's stayin at niffs... should be interesting. I really miss him and his friendship, most of all his friendship. When I see him I'm happy and smiling and everthing is good. but i really miss talkin to him and seein him everyday, which i know is normal. and he says he misses me so much but that seeing me hurts. and i definitely get that.
i'm gettin a tattoo too btw. I'll post pics sometime, I was supposed to get it last night, but the placed closed 15 mins after i got there damnit!
call me guys! i miss u! 828 719 5739!
suzanna