Enjoy the Silence
Sherrie-Ann wanted me to go with her, Fonz and Satesh to the beach today, but I declined, because after my meltdown last night, I really didn't feel like being around people, I just wanted to stay home, relax, sleep and gather my thoughts, but unfortunately even though I did 2 out of 3 of those things, I still am not feeling much better about myself, and still feeling uneasy, and just plain old frustrated. I should really do someing semi-productive, so today isn't a complete waste of my brain cells, like catch up on my novel reading or read the past 3 recaps of Passions since I'm so behind on that show. Yesterday I watched 3 episodes of Port Charles: Desire from my Desire tapes, and although Desire wasn't my favorite of the PC arcs, just watching the show and the PC gang made me feel a little better, and got my mind somewhat off my troubles. Unfortunately though, it's back to me feeling all crappy. I don't even have the zeal to do anything, it's after 3 in the afternoon and I'm still in my PJ's all sad and depressed, but grateful for the time away from all the peeps in my life that want to "help". I guess making a fool out of yourself what do that to you.