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[classytrashy06]

mood: lovesick :(
music: stevie nicks- landslide
and i can't stand to be alone,
doing homework, no one's calling on the phone,
why do i feel that i need you,
why can't i valadate myself.

you, don't see what's really there,
you, play games with my head,
you, whisper in my ear,
but are you really here?

cause all the times i met the greatest guys,
i blew them off, took myself by surprise..
and now i'm here with you..

i can't do it one more time, meet another one i want for mine,
and pass it up all for you, i'm not sure what to do.

cause it's so hard to leave you,
so hard to hear that sound in your voice,
but after all this,
do i really have a choice.

i can't stand to hurt you,
sometimes i think you are, so sincere,
but after i see my blood all over,
how could i be sure.

no priveleges,
but i love you baby,
apologies will somehow make this up,
but as forgiving as i am,
i think it's time to grow up, and move on.

how could i forgive you,
for the pain you've put me through,
how can i forgive you, for my blood that you have strewn.

after 3 years i never thought it would get worse,
but for the first time i've had see my blood fall on you.

i can't believe the person that's supposed to love me true,
could do the things, that he "had to do."

so i leave you with these bitter words,
and all apologies,
but i'll kill myself, eventually,
if that's what it takes to be free.

written 12.15.02