GAHHHHHHHHH.
I already learned that my heart either can't take it, I will get angry, or I will get upset/frustrated (most of the time) when I ask questions I don't want to know the answers to or I have people tell me things I didn't want to know. That's why I try to mind my own business around my friends and family when they're texting/on the phone/etc.
Ugh.
The thing is .. when someone DOESN'T tell me something, then I'll automatically assume the worst about the situation or whatever it is they aren't telling me things about. Which is exactly what I'm doing now. But fuck, I can't make these assumptions cause of that stupid benefit of the doubt. Damn it. What does a person do when there is NO right time to ask a question or bring up a topic? =\ I want to know, but at the same time .. if it's not what I hoped to hear, and it really is the "worst" that I expected, I have no freaking clue what I will do.
There are so many things I want to say. There are so many things I want to know. There are so many things.
Ugh.
The thing is .. when someone DOESN'T tell me something, then I'll automatically assume the worst about the situation or whatever it is they aren't telling me things about. Which is exactly what I'm doing now. But fuck, I can't make these assumptions cause of that stupid benefit of the doubt. Damn it. What does a person do when there is NO right time to ask a question or bring up a topic? =\ I want to know, but at the same time .. if it's not what I hoped to hear, and it really is the "worst" that I expected, I have no freaking clue what I will do.
There are so many things I want to say. There are so many things I want to know. There are so many things.