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hmm so my graduation party...that was interesting. it actually wasnt as horrible as i thought itd be so i guess thats good. idk it was cool except the fact that when i was holding noah (he is 2 months old and my cousin) everyone told my mom and grandparents that i was way to comfortable w/him and to watch out i was gonna end up pregnant soon....that kinda pisses me off. what right do ppl have to say shit like that? o well i guess i cant change shit now can i? well hmm what else has happened. basically just fighting i guess. if its not w/my mom its w/myself or its w/rob....although we really havent been fighting. idk. tonight tho im hurt yet i understand whats going on. have u ever just felt in a sense used? ur there and good when its convent but when something else comes along hey fuck u and ur thrown to the curve. well thats what i feel like lately. when i fit in everythings fine but when something comes up o well easy come easy go. now i realize that u ppl r reading this going oooooooook psycho but its a journal....im suppose to say what i feel so deal w/it. i feel like theres nothing in my life thats making it worth wild. im failing at everything. theres other stuff going on in my life right now that when i try to talk about the subject is always changed....yea things might change but what if they dont. shit cant be pushed away forever. omg i cant do this.....later