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You know, day by day, it becomes a lot easier to see things in my relationship with Michael that I never saw before. It's like when you're drunk. And you think you're acting completely normal, like you always do. But in reality, you're acting like a completely different (and retarded) person. And when you get all that stuff out of your system, you're able to see that.
I'm able to see now, how stupid I was for taking some of the stuff from him that I did. The things that he would say to me, and the way that he would treat me was uncalled for. And I always took it because I was afraid to be without him, because it hurt too much. But I realized that the pain goes away, and to have a lot of pain all at once, and get it over with, is a lot better than having to be hurt over and over again for the rest of my life.
I'm able to see now, how stupid I was for taking some of the stuff from him that I did. The things that he would say to me, and the way that he would treat me was uncalled for. And I always took it because I was afraid to be without him, because it hurt too much. But I realized that the pain goes away, and to have a lot of pain all at once, and get it over with, is a lot better than having to be hurt over and over again for the rest of my life.