everything has got a sense of permanence attached to it
i've come to the realization of so many blatant things this weekend. they were always passing their time in my mind, over and over again, repeating until my over analyzation of them was intolerable. you'll die trying to live this down; you might as well forget it. still, i'm convinced that wondering 'what if?' is the worst thing there is. so we bottled and shelved all our regrets, let them ferment and came back to our senses. all these lines fall short of what i had in mind. a failed attmept to capsulize a feeling; so i just try, fail, and try and try again. someday, i swear, i'm going to get it; because i'm convinced that giving in is the worst thing there is. we'll get over it. sad, strong, safe and sober. we'll move forward and know where we went wrong. talking to the person that is the cause to your stress is so much more simplistic then avoiding them. this weekend brought us closer. i'm sure of that.
all of these awkwardjumpstartinghonest conversations mean more to me than anything.
you guys mean more to me than anything.
i miss elizabeth. i miss julia. a whole lot.
words just aren't right. sometimes i just can't explain.
and i lie to myself and say 'it's for the best.'
this weekend was so great.
GABBEND.
friday-girls'night'out
saturday-natalie's surprise party
sunday-a really big breakfast that ihop made for us.
GIRLS'NIGHT'OUT minus cotton&julia.
IHOP BREAKFASTTTT.
we weren't wearing makeup and we went in our pajamas.
except brooke. gah. :D.
NATALIE'S SURPRISE PARTY, only she wasn't very surprised. whatever.
