i don't want to be anybody else
i'll let my heartbeat drop. i falter as the music stops. you always said destiny would blow me away, nothing will blow me away. we used to get high watching teams as they fought, they loved my friend adam but he always got caught. man, that kid made fucking up look cool. aren't we all so cool? oh, no. i pin this medal on you. you get the silver star. there's no anecdote for irony, you say that you have when you know that you don't and you say that you can when you know that you won't. i was hoping i was dreaming that we could someday change. wish upon a star. but do you know what stars are, giant balls of fire. you can only see so much when you're relying on your eyes. there's an instinct inside everyone, it's the engine and the drive. zip up your jacket, it's getting cold. i'll be back when the morning comes so you won't have to be alone. something's never do change. just watch me fall. deep dark and devastating, bearing no question as to where you've been. make your place down the face of everything we know. breathe in deep, let it out slow. here i am as perfect as i'll ever be. so please don't feel sorry for me. thought i was lost, but i was stranded. open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why. and like a tree i can touch the sky with my feet on the ground.
is amazing.
today, i felt such a sense of realism. i felt so whole. so real. so THERE. all the confusion was gone and there was no worry, no fear, no hate, no devastation. i gave it my all. i almost felt as if i was being lifted up. i couldn't help but sit back and soak it all in. it was insane. this sudden rush of chills through my body. i was alive. i was breathing. i was focused. i was me.